Adelene's dream, hope, love and melody

2012-01-14T19:31:00.002+08:00

The first week of school for 2012 have passed by.

I've been doing some reflection. I noticed that I have lost the motivation to study or do work. I don't know when did that happened but it happened just when I needed to keep my momentum up. A Levels is going to start in October 2012. I really hope that I'll be ready for O levels and for my prelims.

I also noticed that my psychological barrier for math has returned. I didn't know when did it happen but I guess that it sneaked back into my system just before Math promo exam. Math lecture test 1 us just round the corner at the coming Thursday. I really want to score well and prove to myself that I can do it. But can I first overcome the barrier?

My class' civics and chemistry tutor has changed. The new teacher didn't really give me a very good first impression to be honest. But despite my bias-ness, I feel that her teaching style is good and she often questions us and makes us think instead of giving us the answer. To be honest, I miss Ms Ong's and Ms Lim's teaching style.

During open house, Ms Lee spoke to me. She said that she feel that I'm not giving my all. She even said if she were to push me 5times more than she's doing now, I'll still be able to cope. She even say your A can actually be pushed to a higher A if you were to put in more effort. I know she cares for me a lot and I could feel disappointment in her voice. But I really don't know where I'm heading to and my direction in life. I used to think even though I don't know my direction in life, so long as I get all As I would be fine. I aimed for all straight As However, with no goals, I really have nothing to aim for or strive towards. I miss JSS' motivating environment.

I also feel like I'm disappointing Mr Ho. After what he had done for me in Shanghai and my trip over there, I still feel that I couldn't really see how he sees things (as in for Econ).

It makes me question myself a little, is this the right path? Yes, no doubt, I really love what I'm doing now and I'm actually missing SBIC. But I have to admit, I love doing what I'm doing now. It gives me loads of stress at times, but I love my combination.

Another thing is about a best friend of mine. I know him only last year and because of my stupidity, I single-handedly ruin our friendship. I wished that we could return to the time when we were extremely close and good friends. But I know, much time is needed for that to happen. If he were to be reading this now, I want to tell him, thank you very much for being such an awesome best friend to me and standing by me and being there for me everytime I needed someone to. You gave me the most unforgettable time of 2011. How I wish we could go back to being close friends again.

For my singing, my range expanded and I can reach much lower now and utilise my head and chest voice. I'm now trying to explore mixed voice for mid-range.

I really hope that I can get back my momentum and do well for my studies. I don't want to hear or feel disappointment from others anymore...

2011

2012-01-05T01:24:00.004+08:00

2011 was a bittersweet year for me.

I would like to thank several people who helped me through this difficult time and year.

My awesome family and friends :)

My family and extended family
My awesome Primary school good friends who I never talk to for years and yet were still there for me: Joyce, Vanessa (V!! + BFF), Felicia, Meow Jin, Sophia, Tzy Yiing, ShiHao
6b'06 :)
My JSS (<3) Sec 3 and 4 clique: Yi Hong, Viola, Stella, Hui Hui, Asher, Esmond.
JSS good friends: Celina (BFF + sis), Abi, Jaswen, Grace, Jack, Jia Jun, Sandra, Shan Shan (Vietnam trip roomate :) ), Victor, Wai Chi, Wei En, Wei Quan, Syafie, Lay Ping, Shalini, Arivindd, Mark, Kin Hun, Wai Teng
Awesome 4-5'10 :D and adorable JSS Choir Juniors who constantly bring me joy, pride and smiles when I go back to visit them
New best friends that I met: Zac :D and Doreen :D
New good friends that I met: Ju, Jeryl, Jessica, Ben, June
SBIC Friends who made the attachment fun and less of a drag.:)
Shanghai OELP Friends :)

Teachers that continued supporting and giving me advices and encouragements

Primary School: Mrs Nai, Mrs Tong, Ms Bala
JSS: Mdm Zheng, Mrs Ng, Ms Ong SK, Mr S Tan, Mrs Aidil, Ms R Lim, Ms Wong
Choir: Ms Goh, Mr Adyll, Mr Low, Kelvin
JC: Ms Lim SW, Ms Esther Lee, Mr Ho, Mrs Chan, Mr Ong (from JSS), Mr Paul Leong (from JSS)

Now, the beginning of my long-winded story

Firstly, I got my O Level Results and they weren't as I expected. I did worst than I expected. I didn't know where to go. Many people may say that I'm bullshitting and think I'm stuck up but it's the truth. I had always wanted to go NJC since I was Sec 1. And I couldn't even do well enough to go into my 2nd choice school which is ACJC.

In the end, I'm truly grateful for Ms Goh. My mum and sis didn't have the time to go with me to open house during to family matters ad busy schedules. Ms Goh brought me to ACJC and then CJC. ACJC, to be honest, wasn't what I expected. The people aren't friendly at all. But I met up with an alumni of JSS and he told me that ACJC Science is almost the same standard as JJC Science. In the end, I took down the appeal details and we left after watching some performances. We went to CJC. I remembered that it was pouring that day we went to CJC but I was totally impressed by their performing arts theatre and to be honest I really loved CJC and its environment. Yes, even though the school is pretty rundown, the people there were really nice. My cousin helped me select the JCs and keyed it into the system. ACJC, AJC, SAJC, CJC then JJC.

The day of posting results, I found out I got in AJC. Non Mihi Solum. I was neutral but intimidated by the distance that I needed to take to go to the school and school starts at 7.10am! I remembered on the 2nd day of school, I went for the audition for AJChoir. I was extremely nervous and that being auditioned by Mr Nelson Kwei, himself-the rumored fiercest and best competitive conductor-actually made me shake. I thought I would never get in AJChoir as Mr Kwei kept giving me the "look" when I sang. Justine really helped me with warm ups. In the end, I was over the moon when James (the choir president) actually told me I got in with a straight face and in the end, he laughed at me. I was posted into Sop 2 (went to choir prac on the day itself) and initially I wasn't very happy that I got in Sop 2 cause I kept being pulled away by the Sop 1s (which were more than half the total number of Sopranos) and secondly cause I felt uncomfortable seeing that range. Nicholas who was my MG group leader was in the choir as well! I remembered talking to Shaun and Nica about my discomfort. I attended like around 2-3 Choir sessions during the 1 week I was in AJ.Hui Sze and Joanna really guided me along. I'm truly grateful for the chance to be part of the AJChoir and having so many seniors and friends that actually guided and helped me along. Especially Zoe and her "westerners". I really enjoyed my time in the AJChoir. No importa la distancia! CCA Carnival was a blast as well, with AJChoir performing 1 pop song and Alleluia in the LT (which is much much much bigger and better than the ones in JJ) and the choir split up into small groups and went around singing.

In the end, on the last day allowed for appeal (31/1/11), my mum submitted my appeal form to JJC. When the admin staff called me from JJC, I was in AJC's Elementz Lab having the Elementz tour. Initially, I was overjoyed by the news. During that day itself, I went to JJC, took the form and went back to AJC to pull out from the school. When I was leaving AJ for the last time, I met Charmaine who tried to convince me to stay in AJ. I'm sorry that I had to let her down... But I'm truly grateful to the AJ friends that stayed with me even after I left AJ - Ben, June and Eunice :) But I'm really sorry to pang sei Abi and Han Yun.

The NJChoir President and CJChoir President also asked me down for audition. I really wanted to go into NJ. But since I didn't put NJ as any of my choices, I have to let this opportunity slip by. Whereas for the CJChoir President, she contacted me after I joined AJChoir. She was really nice and told me to enjoy myself in AJChoir and asked me to stay there as I could learn a lot. I'm truly grateful for her encouragements. But yet again, I have to let this golden opportunity slip by.

Fionn, upon hearing that I transferred to JJC, she immediately contacted me to ask me to join the JJChoir. At first, I was really reluctant to be honest. JJChoir have a really bad reputation among all Secondary and JC Choirs, and furthermore, with my experience with the AJChoir, I didn't know whether I could join JJChoir. In the end, under Fionn's constant encouragement, I decided to join the JJChoir and went for audition. I remembered Mr Low was extremely friendly and made me laugh during the audition. But I was the rare few J1s still wearing my own secondary school uniform (JSS <3), he questioned. And when I told him I transferred from AJChoir, he said, "Mr Kwei is intimidating right?" And I agreed. I remember that I was so relaxed with Mr Low that I didn't really note what I was singing and just sang as per normal. Without me knowing, I hit the High D (D6) without me knowing. He immediately placed me in Sop 1 after testing out my low and mid range.

I was really happy in JJChoir as we are a rather small choir and we are rather bonded, especially when there's only 3 Sop 1s initially (2 seniors and I). As usual, I was the "powerhouse" at the higher notes together with my seniors. Mr Low was also very friendly and close to us, always helping us find opportunities to perform. But when SYF was drawing near, he made us make a heart-wrenching decision-to go for SYF or not. After debating with myself for a very long time, I voted not to go. In the end, JJChoir pulled out of SYF. We had to bear with the rest of the school questioning our ability and hearing others speculate about us.

On 16/7/11, we had the opportunity to hold a charity concert with ACS (primary), ACS (Barker), CCHS (Main), PRSS, HCI and NCHS for the Japan Disaster victims. It was really extremely meaningful and that I enjoyed myself. I also had an opportunity to be part of a 100++ strength choir for the combined pieces.

On 6/8/11 was College Day where we performed We Rise Again and college song to the school.

Throughout all these, I finally found what I could deem as my own Musicality. I finally learned how to connect my heart and soul with my voice. All along I was always singing because I loved singing and that my instructors chose the pieces and I just sang what I was taught. But starting from the experience in My Music, My Song, My Story and the performance at the Arts House with JSS Choir, I slowly started to learn and understood what song from the heart really truly meant. For that, I really have to thank Ms Goh, Mr Low, Kelvin and Charice for teaching me and pointing it out to me. All along I can play pieces on my violin that tugged my heart and made me feel the music and finally, after being expressionless for years in my choral singing, I learnt how to feel the Music and spread the message through music and song. I'm grateful to Ms Goh who taught me that.

I fell in love with a guy that I'm still in love with even though we have separated. We got together on the 27/9/11. It was a short romance. But I'm truly glad he's now my good friend (actually I see him as my best friend) who also gives me advices, encouragements and listens to my troubles. I won't be so silly to sabotage our friendship again. The memories that we used to share will be always kept in the depths of my heart. The time I was with him was truly the happiest and best moments of 2011. The reason why I love him is as simple as I don't have a reason. I loved him for simply who he was and how he does things, just the way he is. He never fails to bring a smile to my face even in bad days. If the feelings are mutual, to be honest, I don't mind waiting for him. But our friendship is sufficient and I'm not going to sabotage it.. Amigos Para Siempre.

2/12/11-10/12/11 was the second happiest period of 2011, I had so much fun with Doreen and met new friends. 8/11/11-16/12/11 was also one of the happier times where I had fun and made new close friends with other SBIC attachment students :) To be honest, SBIC wasn't in the 3 choice RI that I submitted but I don't regret going there and enjoyed the fun and hilarious moments with my friends there (especially the epic picnic). My Pri Sch class gathering also brought me back old friends that I've lost contact with.

2012 has started and with it, it brings new responsibility and new challenges (A Levels :X). But I'm glad to have met new people and new close friends that I believe will make this year a better one :)

2011-11-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

I've started my attachment at A*STAR's SBIC on 8/11/11. And so far, the experience is novel for me and I've learn new things every single day. It's amazing. Really grateful for this opportunity. I've learn a lot of things, met great people and had great experiences. I'm under Professor Chuang, who placed me under Dr Reshmi, who later entrusted me to JiaFang and Huang Wei. My project is on motion correction for tumor. Initially, it was tough for me to get over the psychological barrier of injecting tumors into mice, but I've learnt that they do ensure that the animals do not get into any discomfort from the tumor. I'm having a slightly tough time grasping the concepts as my project is largely based on Physics and Computing. But I'm enjoying the experimenting part where we do cell culture work, measurement of tumors, etc. I realised that I'm more interested in the cell culture side. Even though the MRI imaging is fun but the processing of the data extracted from the MRI is a complex and tedious process. Nevertheless, I'm enjoying myself there =)

Moreover, on 3rd November, Mr Low actually praised me and said that I have a beautiful head tone and that I gave him a good sound that he could actually hear a "wall of sound" from me. I feel so happy, it's as if all my hard work had paid off =)

Today was fabulous. I've heard the line that I've always wanted to hear. Today, during lunchtime, I heard Memories by Within Temptation playing on the radio. I sang along with it. I wasn't in top condition, just recovering from a bad sore throat I had last week. But a good friend of mine that I've met in SBIC was sitting beside me and heard me sing. Immediately, he asked me, "Do you want to perform for my school's dinner and dance?" I was surprised and I nearly cried. He continued, " I heard you sing and to be honest, I really enjoyed it." I nearly cried when I heard him say that. He said he have to check with his school authorities if it was fine but I'm really extremely touched and happy that I nearly cried in public. It was like what I've always wanted to hear, someone that actually liked and enjoyed my voice and singing. It dawned on me that perhaps this was what I've always wanted to do, continue working towards he dream I had since I was 2+...

2011-11-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

Haven't blogged for ages.

Recently a lot of things have been happening. Firstly the promo results released.
GP: D
Chinese: B
Biology: B
Chemistry: A
Mathematics: B
Econ: D

Aren't happy with my Biology and Mathematics. Both dropped from high A to a B... My GP, Chemistry and Chinese have been the same grade since the start of the year..

I'm selected for GP and Economics remedial lecture and retest. It clashes with A*STAR. Moreover, I'll be going ShangHai for the Economics OELP which will take up 8 days and 6 days of labwork is included. Mr Ong excused me from the GP remedial lectures and retest but Mr Ho refuses.

I need to meet at least 80% of the attendance or else I'll get kicked out of the A*STAR Science Award. I don't want to get kicked out. I really hope that my award can be renewed next year.

Yesterday was my A level Chinese paper (31/10/11) I think I did relatively normal.

Choir going to start on Thurs =)

My dad's Chinese death anniversary is round the corner and I'm missing him more than ever, it seemed less than a year ago when he just left us.

I also miss Zac. Even though we were together only 3 weeks, to be honest, it was the happiest point of my life for 2011.

Music

2011-10-19T01:44:00.001+08:00

Reading violastrawberrycheesecake post made me realised something.

I realised that close to 9 years (more than half of my life) in Choir actually made me focus on the basics and techniques of singing more than the expression of Music itself. Choir also focuses mainly on blending and unity of the voice more than training us to be unique.

I’m afraid that I may have lost my uniqueness in my voice, my own individual music and musical expressions.

But recently, I’ve been searching for myself again in Music, rediscovering who I was and my unique sense of Musicality. It was hard, but no one said it was easy. I’ve learnt to place memories and feelings to the lyrics and mean what I sing.I’ve also learnt to brush up on areas I’m weak in (e.g. low notes) and stopped giving myself excuses (e.g. I’m a Soprano). I’ve learnt that a good singer has to be all-rounded be it in high, mid or low notes. We shouldn’t shun from what we find hard to do, instead we should overcome it, even if it isn’t in our tessitura, at least we should try.

Whenever I’m upset, down or bored, I always turn to Music and singing to help me. Sing out my emotion. The songs I choose to sing, the lyrics will usually depicts whatever I want to say or on the other hand, have a nice melody that can be easily managed by me.

But overall, I feel that I really love singing, it enables me to express all that words cannot express but Music can. And that the Music and song will take me to a different world. Singing is like part of my daily life, my daily routine.

I love performing. The feeling whereby you sang with your heart and conveyed the Music, the audience feel you and feel the Music, is the best feeling ever. I love to perform, it’s not due to the attention given, it’s more of my way to express myself and share the Music and the meaning. I personally feel that stage is my second home and I feel perfectly comfortable on stage. The one moment where you are the star, to shine and share the Music to everyone present.

Whereas for my violin, it’s been ages I’ve played with my heart or connect my heart with my violin. I remember the feeling was like out of the world experience. The Music and my soul seemed to go to another world. I remembered at that time, the Music seemed alive, touching and I didn’t wanted the Music to end. That feeling was indescribable. I hope that I may have another chance to do that with my violin and when that time comes, I hope I’ll be able to capture the feeling and constantly produce it. For that, when a Musician plays with their heart, I feel it’s true Music.

2011-10-11T16:03:00.008+08:00

OMG!!!! I really feel like I'm dreaming.

First I got in Economics OELP, then A*STAR Science Award.

And now, nominated for H3 Chemistry and Chemistry Olympiad.

Am I dreaming?? I can't believe this. Especially H3 Chemistry and Chemistry Olympiad as these are what I longed for since I was in Sec 3.

It's just that so many things are happening for me and that I managed to get into so many prestigious programs and award. The selection criteria are so stringent and yet I still managed to get in, it feels like I'm in a dream...

But if I really managed to become a singer, it'll really be a dream come true for me... :D

Promo Results
GP P2: 24/50
Chinese Compo: 38/60, Compre: 54/100
Biology P1: 31/40
Chemistry P1: 32/40, P2: 53/70
Economics P1: 13/30, P2: 26/50

Disappointed for GP, Chemistry P2, Economics. But whatever is over is over =) Chemistry is due to me losing marks over the most stupidest mistake anyone can make -.-

Now I have to do OP slides and decide when to start Choir =)

Falling deeply in love...

2011-10-10T18:59:00.001+08:00

I got in A*STAR Science Award and Economics OELP but they clash. Thank goodness for Ms Lim and Ms Quek who helped me settle it. Hope that Doreen's side is negotiable as well...

2011-10-06T19:32:00.002+08:00

Today is the end of my Post-promo Holidays. Had 3 days of holidays and I'm required to go back to school tomorrow for post-promo activities but I'm rather reluctant to do so.

I really really love singing a lot =) It's been my hobby, pastime, entertainment and enjoyment since I was 2++ =) I really hope that one day I can turn this interest into my career but in Singapore, it's pretty hard to do so as Singapore focuses mainly on academics areas such as Math and Science. However, I really really do want to follow my dream. I've been practicing and attempting to learn from as many people I can. Hopefully, this can bring me closer to my dreams. I also hope that people close to me will truly support this dream of mine when had been with me since I was 2++ until now...

I'm also extremely grateful for having people around that cares for me a lot, apart from my family. It's heartwarming to know that you're close to friends and they accept you for who you are. Words can't describe my gratitude especially those who had supported me through my hardest time when my dad just passed away. Even though now I still haven't gotten over the grief, I'm grateful for those who stand by me, lent me strength to pick myself up and move on. They are really true friends and that I'll keep this in my heart, never forgetting what you all have done for me. Thank you very much...

And to Zachary, don't get too stressed up! =) Cause stress brings about adverse effects. Just remember that I'm always here for you, willing to lend a listening ear to you, should a need arise.

Yi Hong, O Levels is NOTHING compared to JC life. But as I promised, I'll keep it and help you out ;)

2011-09-29T22:09:00.003+08:00

27th September 2011 <3 haha =)

Today:
Tomorrow Econs... Screwed up Biology P2, GP Paper 2, Chemistry Paper 2. Hopefully my screw up isn't so bad that lose my As =(

But I'm in Econ OELP :) hehe =) Room-mate: Doreen (My Best Friend in JJC)!! Yay =)

sing

2011-09-23T23:44:00.001+08:00

Charice is here in Singapore for F1!!! And she performed a few of my favourite songs!! How I wish I could watch her live!! But can't due to promo just next wednesday :(

Charice really do inspire me as she's a real life example of if you dare to dream big and work towards it, you can live your dream! I really really do want to be a singer. And today on twitter, someone from Philippines encouraged me and told me to work towards it and not give up. Really grateful and touched by his/her gesture...

And yes, I'll not give up my dreams of being a singer. It's been what I ever wanted to do since I was a child and could remember what I wanted to do and achieve. Since I was 2, I started singing and dreaming of being a singer one day. I really do want to achieve that dream and experience what is it like to live your dream.

And I got shortlisted for Economics OELP trip :) But it clashes with A*STAR and A*STAR haven't reply :X Lost on what to do.

But my desire for being a singer is as strong as it was when I was younger, if not, stronger.

Promo

2011-09-21T18:28:00.002+08:00

I've been on MC for Monday and yesterday due to gastric. The pain was really horrible. It was as if someone had grabbed my stomach and squeezed it tightly and not letting go. Furthermore the pain came with shivering and the feeling of vomiting. I also had fever. Dr Adrian Tan diagnosed me with Gastric problem and that too much acid has been produced in my stomach.

He said the reasons causing gastric are:
1) Irregular meals/skipping meals
2) Eating irregular portions of food (e.g. 1 day eating buffet and the next day eating super little)
3) Eating the wrong type of food that disagrees with you
4) Stress

Promos are exactly a week from now. The first day of promos is next Wed-28th Sep 2011-GP and Biology. I'm super worried, freaked out and stressed now. I don't know if I can Ace it. I don't know if it's too late to start working. I'm super worried.

My goal for Promos:
H1 General Paper: B / C
H1 Chinese: A / B
H2 Biology: A
H2 Chemistry: A
H2 Mathematics: A
H2 Economics: B/C

URP: 80/90

OELP

2011-09-14T16:48:00.001+08:00

Today was the Economics OELP trip interview. This was the best interview that I ever had :) Mr Ho (my class Economics tutor) interviewed me with Ms Ginelle Lim (Oligopoly lecturer) :)

Initially, I was quite nervous but when I went in, I realised that they were very nice and Mr Ho was in great mood :) Really truly enjoyed myself in an interview for the first time :) I made them laugh and the whole interview was like conversational and light. Truly delighted now ;D It was a great experience <3

Even though I realised that they were things that I missed out that I could have said but it'll always remain a great experience to me :) And I won't regret :)

But suddenly, I feel like singing and training my voice again to reach for my dream :) <3

South West Singapore Quiz

2011-09-14T16:44:00.001+08:00

WRITTEN ON 11/9/11

Today was the district challenge of the South West Singapore Quiz formerly known as Integrate Singapore Quiz :)

There was initially 3 rounds but it became 4 when we tied with Yuhua Light. Mr Ho was in a very bad mood today as Jeryl couldn't make it due to food poisoning and he took it out on Teng Yuen which I heard from the latter. We went to Gek Poh Ville Community Centre. We gathered outside the hall. After a while, we went to the 3rd floor Karoke room for a briefing. Then we went to the hall for the actual competition graced by Dr Amy Khor :) Our group was given the 4th table and group name: Jurong Explorers named by Mr Ho. We are given questions based on the categories: Arts, Culture, General Knowledge, History, Lifestyle, Religion, Singapore and sports.

The first round we got 3/5 which was the lowest out of everyone as the rest of the groups all got 5/5 :P The second round we caught up, tying with the middle kingdom and Yuhua light, with Yuan Chingians leading and Team Civilians second. Then after the third round, we tied with Yuhua light with the Team Civilians emerging champion while The middle kingdom tying with Yuan Chingians. We went through tie-breaker round where we answered 3 questions before emerging 2nd!! :)

Violin

2011-09-10T17:44:00.001+08:00

Today I went for my violin lesson as I've swop slots with Yi Hong for this week due to the fact the integrate Singapore Quiz Finals are tomorrow. Then I asked violin teacher to change all my strings for me. I bought the strings from Plaza Singapura's Yamaha last Sunday. The brand name of the violin strings I bought is D'Addario Helicore strings, H310 medium tension, Violin set stranded steel core. Cost: $71.34! And when my violin teacher changed the G string for me and turned the knob to tune it, it broke. And the D string's quality was bad and looked like it was almost going to rust when it's sealed in individual packets!

Then my violin teacher gave me one of her G violin string. The brand is Dominant, 133 medium, synthetic core, silver wound. Thomastik Infeld Vienna, handmade strings since 1919. She said that she bought it from Synwin Music and that it is the wholesaler for the strings in Singapore. Furthermore all her students uses this brand of strings and the quality is extremely good and never breaks. Moreover, one set of the strings cost around $58 which is cheaper then Helicore and much better quality!

Therefore I learnt my lesson the hard way :( Never to buy D'Addario Helicore violin strings from Yamaha and buy Dominant from Synwin Music instead :)

Yesterday, Xiao Gu brought my elder sis and I out for lunch at Kushinbo, Jurong Point :) Thanks xiao gu :) and I survived yesterday with only Kuhinbo buffet lunch, Nestle Lemonade and green tea, 1 small carton of milk and 1 small mooncake :)

Was extremely nostalgic yesterday as I looked through pictures stored in my hp memory card and saw photos dating back to last year :) A lot of JSS photos

Last night, Ms Junainah from A*STAR emailed me asking me to submit my application form for the research attachment and asked me to choose 3 research institutes from the 1 whole list of institutes under A*STAR. I don't know what to choose and haven't made a decision :X got around a week to decide. But she also said that the results of the interview will only be out in Mid October. If we get in, we'll have to do research at the selected A*STAR institute from 14th nov to 16th dec. But my mum has booked tickets for us to fly to Thailand on 15th Nov. I really do want to get in the research program as it can be taken as a H3 paper! But at the same time I want to go overseas and spend more time with my family. Conflicted and wonder if i get in and if I complete my research fast, will I be able to go? :)

But as I've said in my previous post, whatever will be, will be. If I'm meant to have the award, I'll get it :) if not, I will be slightly disappointed but definitely not devastated ;)

A*STAR

2011-09-08T22:53:00.004+08:00

I finally realised that I shouldn't be so uptight over whether I do get it or not. Cause it's really up to fate and destiny that really do decide whether I do get the A*STAR Science Award and OELP. If I do get it, I'll be extremely overjoyed and over-the-moon. But I also know that even if I don't get it, I won't be disheartened and continue working on my other subjects, won't be too hung up over it. After all, everything in life is dependent on how we view things and how we react to it. All I know is that if I've tried my best, even if I don't get in, it's sufficient for me. If I do get in is a bonus. I've given my all in the interview, looking back there are things I can further improve on but I won't lament over it. Whatever's over is past and over and done with. We can't rewind time.

I have to admit that when I received notification from the school that they are nominating me for the A*STAR Science (JC) Award, I was thrilled and I want to get this award and go for the 1 month long attachment. I really really desired to clinch it. But between the submission of our particulars and supporting documents (22/4) and the actual interview (which is today) is a good 4+ month and all this time I've made up my mind that regardless whether I get in or not, I'll focus on my 4H2s and ace it. When they emailed me for the interview, I had to admit I was thrilled. But I know that the higher the hopes, the bigger the disappointment. So I decided that if I do get in, it's a bonus and I'll be thrilled. I f I don't it'll be fine as I still have my 4H2s. Whatever will be, will be, whatever that should be mine, will be mine. In the interview, I knew I could have done better and said much more but it's over. My chance to impress the panel is gone. All I can do is hope that they give me a chance to experience what is a research attachment =)

At least I've taken the first step to carry on with it and do my best every stage. No matter what the results will be, I'll accept it cause I know whatever it is, whatever matters is that I give my all =)

Also, another decision I just made is that after my promos and my younger sis' EOY, I'll try to record and upload videos of my singing =) Hopefully this way I can gain more advice and opinions on how to improve. This is a big step I've taken. Hope that it'll bring me closer to my dream.

My YouTube Account

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2011-09-07T22:07:00.001+08:00

I don't know why but I've been procrastinating and wasting all the time I could be studying on something else.. I don't know why but I've lost the motivation, drive and zest I used to have towards studying, the curiosity and inquisitiveness to learn more as well as the competitiveness thy I used to have.. I just get contented when I see an A on my test papers and unlike last time, I did not feel the urge to improve myself more and get closer to a full marks and to attain a quality A. I really don't know what's going on... I know, at least deep inside me I know that I really want to get As for every subject but I don't feel the urge to go chase after my subject tutors in school to ask for more knowledge for consultation. I don't know if losing this is good or bad... I've even stopped doing some of my tutorials cause I got the hopelessness feeling of tutorials never-ending and keep coming towards me and I'm struggling to finish... I'm scared that it'll affect my promos. I mean I know for me being promoted and remaining in 4H2 is a rather easy job for me. But I'm just worried that all these information can't be retained in my mind as there's loads of it... I'm afraid that i can't manage my time again and waste it. But I really want quality grades and get URP more that 75..

Anyway, A*STAR Science Award interview tomorrow... Really hope I can get in.. If I don't, I know that maybe there are other better things arranged for me... But I sincerely want to get in as it's a prestigious event plus it allows me to have more experience in research work and may be able to help me decide if this is the path I'm willing, capable and able enough to take-research scientist or pharmacist. I remember that it was because of my dad's condition and situation that really made me open my career choices and begin to make me feel like being a doctor or a research pharmacist to help people like my dad and to cure people from diseases and illness that used to be unable to cure or from the illness that took my dad away. I don't want any child or teenager to go through or experience what I had. I know opportunities and chances like this don't come often and I'm honoured to be able to be nominated and selected by my school to go for this and I'll just do my best and not let myself and the school down. Hope that all of you will support me too :)

That aside, it doesn't mean I'm giving up my dream of being a singer and violinist. :) My interests are widely spread out between the Sciences, Math and Music <3 I really want to choose a path that several years down the road I won't look back and regret not choosing another path. So A*STAR can really help me decide if the Sciences are my cup of tea :) But my passion for Sciences, Math and Music with never die off. I trust in it...

2011-08-17T18:54:00.004+08:00

I really want to be a singer but I don't really know if I could and everything doesn't seem to be going smoothly. It's like I don't really have the confidence but I really want to be a singer. It's like a lot of people are putting me down by saying that you can't survive being a singer or musician in Singapore. In Singapore, there's a lot of avenue for people to develop their interest in Science, business, social sciences, medical,etc. But it's so hard to find a avenue for being an artist-to sing, perform,etc. For example, in my school we have talentime. But in the end, those who got selected are those "popular" people who are selected for their popularity instead or voice and stage presence. And just cause we choose the wrong song (A whole new world by Aladin) and it's not your cup of tea, you just disqualified us? And the rules say we have 2.5 min to sing and you just shorten it to 1.5 min just cause you want to leave earlier is it fair? I don't know but I feel it's super unfair and how can we showcase our talent?

But Charice really inspires me and really makes me persevere on with my dream despite all the setbacks i faced. Thank you...

2011-07-09T18:10:00.006+08:00

My school Choir performance is coming up! =)

Date: 16th July 2011
Time: 7.30pm-9.30pm
Venue: ACS (Barker Road)
Ticket: $10 each and all proceeds go to the Japan disaster funds =)

Do contact me if you wish to attend =)

So far,
General Paper Paper 2: 46% =(
Biology Paper 1: 80%
Biology Paper 2: 47% =(
Chemistry Paper 1: 80%
Chemistry Paper 2: 66.7% =(
Mathematics: 80%

I feel extremely disappointed, disheartened and demoralised by my results. Upon receiving my papers, I feel that I could have done better and that I could answer the questions before teacher went through the paper for chem and bio P2. It's a matter of time management as I did not manage to complete my bio P2 and that I didn't have time to check my chem. I feel extremely upset and felt that I had just received the shock of my life for my Bio P2, Chem P2, GP P2. Especially the former. I really hope that I can do better next time. And yet I still feel sad and felt like I could do it and yet I didn't. Especially for Bio, my lecture test 1 and 2 were 90% and 89% respectively and yet now... My Chem lecture test was 80% and yet... My GP lecture test was a B grade and now... The only subject that I maintained was Mathematics. Hopefully that my P1s can pull up my chem, bio and GP...

I hope, I wish, I want, I need to do better next time... But can I?
I want to do well academically, I want to be what I've always dreamed of, do my dream career... Can I?

I won't give up, I'll keep trying. All I hope is that things will get better...

Post Created 6 Jul 2011 16:33:15

2011-07-06T16:33:00.001+08:00

Bio paper 1: 80%
Chem paper 2 66.7%

I felt like I'm underperforming :( Hope that my Chem paper 1 can pull my chemistry up to an A. I felt extremely disappointed with myself for my Chem and GP. I also hope I'll do well for bio paper 2, Chem paper 1, GP paper 1 and Econ!!!!

Now tremendously disappointed and worried :(

Our choir performance is on 16th July, next sat :)

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worried

2011-07-05T19:19:00.001+08:00

Worried about my A Level Chinese Oral on the 7th July, this Thurs and for my CT! Hope I did well for my common test.

So far,
Math 80%
GP Paper 2 42% hope that my paper 1 can pull it up and I do well in other subjects :X

2011-06-14T18:37:00.002+08:00

Trying my best to write notes ^^ Hoping that I can finish on time

Have to make decisions which are touch. Interest vs exams =(

2011-05-25T19:25:00.002+08:00

Super touching and sweet. Really conveys the girl's love for the violin and music. ♥ this.

This really taught me to not give up despite meeting setbacks and continuing to pursue what you think is right, what you truly want, love and like...

2011-05-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

I'm coping. I hope...

I'm getting kind of tired of this. I clear 1 pile of tutorials and another pile come in. It's like a never-ending vicious cycle. When will I ever see the light of the tunnel.

Yet, I know I must persevere on. MUSTN'T GIVE UP!

REMAIN OPTIMISTIC!!! I CAN DO THIS, I GOT TO DO THIS!

First, I need to learn how to stop procrastinating =X

2011-05-14T15:51:00.000+08:00

<3 I love this song ^^

2011-04-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

I hope that one day I could achieve that standard. Sound nice even though it's impromptu

2011-04-27T18:22:00.000+08:00

Love the background and the song ^^

To do

2011-04-26T22:07:00.005+08:00

I need to practice my Violin. I want to sing, learn piano, learn composing.

I need to complete my tutorials, need to write notes, need to do my TYS, need to do SATT, need to do class quiz, need to do home based learning, need to complete Chinese compo, need to write essays, need to complete my homework, improve my grades.

Need go see my orthodontist on Thurs in the middle of school.

I want to do my half done research on voice types.

MAN I NEED TO PRIORITIZE and manage my time properly and stop being so easily distracted.

I want a break...

My overall CA is out.
H1 GP: D (53%)=(
H1 CL: B
H1 PW: -
H2 Bio: A
H2 Chem: A
H2 Math: A
H2 Econs: C

Likewise with the rest, I feel a little disappointed with myself and yet I couldn't help but being happy at some other subject. I won't be complacent and just continue to strive for the best I could or else perfection...

The Choir's polls have been out and majority voted no. So we're not going to SYF. Even though I feel a tinge of sadness and guiltiness, I know, deep down that this is the best decision for now. Hopefully that in the future we may have more activities to gain choral experience ^^

For now, I'll just try my best in everything I do.

Enjoyed my birthday on 22/4/11. My mum brought us to Swensens for lunch ^^ Ate Salmon. Then had McCafe Oreo frappe for teabreak. Have 2 new pencil cases (from my mum and friends (Wee Sin, Jovy, Chloe, Joanne, Xue Ngoh, Krystal) and file from my friends, cupcake keychain from Cheryl. Ah ma, xiao gu and e po gave angbao. And people in facebook gave me birthday greetings even from friends I've never spoken to for a long time and some messaged me... Really grateful that they care. I enjoyed my day and it was so sweet of them, all these messages showed me that someone cared for me which made my day. ♥ Glad that my family spend it with me and my friends celebrated it

2011-04-20T20:22:00.001+08:00

It doesn't matter what others think, it's how you view yourself. I'm contented if I just do my best, the results is not what matters, it's the process and the experience. If we do well it's a bonus, even if we don't it's a learning experience for us. So, i just want to give it a shot, 1 try will suffice. I'll give my all.

2011-04-17T19:37:00.003+08:00

Wonder if anyone will remember my birthday... This coming Fri will be the very first time I spend my birthday without my dad =( Even staring at the picture on his tomb and in Ching Ming really makes me wanna cry, I still haven't accept the fact mentally yet... I miss my dad...

Academically, I'm doing fine.

H1 General Paper: B
H1 Chinese: A (don't know how on earth did I managed to get that)
H2 Biology: A
H2 Chemistry: A
H2 Mathematics: A

More worried about my Econs....

2011-04-06T18:02:00.005+08:00

I wonder how many times I have to go through failures before I achieve my goal? I really admire Charice being able to persevere on despite all the failures. I've always wanted to be a singer since i was 2+. Cheryl, Af and I didn't get through audition =( All I can hope is that I will have another opportunity to perform on stage again. I really enjoy myself on stage. Yes, even though I have to admit before the audition, I was super super nervous, I know my good friends can testify for that. However, I will never forget the moment when I'm on stage with Music and singing, I feel so peaceful, at home. I enjoyed myself. Even though we were only given 1min 30 sec, i really enjoyed myself and had fun. When people ask me, how is it like on stage, I say fun. Cause indeed it's fun and enjoyable. Every min every sec counts.

Yes, I will strive on.

I've always appreciated and loved Music-the power of Music is so strong... It comforts me, gives me strength to carry on.

I guess all I have do now is to concentrate on my academics, singing and violin. Recently, I've been exploring my voice an there's new techniques that I guess I've found =) And my violin doing grading pieces =)

I really agree with this song. <3

2011-04-02T13:00:00.002+08:00

The garden's last red rose audio

Haha I really like this song =) Our third piece =) Learnt it in 1 choir session =D Our SYF balloting is out. We're the first JC Choir to perform on 4th May. Hope we do well. Mr Low is going to do intensive training from next next week onwards cause next week is J1 lecture test week =P But Choir's fun, now we have like total strength 33 people =) with 3 Sop1, 6 tenors, 6 basses, 6 Alto and the bulk in Sop2 =) Enjoying myself in choir and with 11S01. It's like everyday will have something funny happening in class =P

I'm like pretty happy with my Biology and Math lecture test 1 results =)Both As and I passed my very first econs essay (which I did during econ lecture =P)But there are people who keeps calling me a mugger which I'm not... =( Otherwise everything has been fun =)

Gtg do tutorial, study for chem and chi which on Mon and go violin which is starting like today 2.30pm =X

2011-03-21T20:41:00.001+08:00

All I'm doing now is trying my best to a certain extent =)

2011-03-18T19:03:00.002+08:00

Today's choir prac only had 3 Soprano1s, 9 Soprano2s, 5 Altos, 2 Tenors, 1 Bass turned up =( But normally, we only have 3 S1... But overall, it was pretty ok =) We did dawn wind today =)

2011-03-11T18:52:00.003+08:00

On Wednesday, Ms Seeto called me to inform me that on 25th March, I've been invited back to the school for the Annual Prize Giving day. It was an honour. When I was Secondary one, I never thought that I would have this opportunity. I'm looking forward to go back, cause I miss JSS and am thankful for all the teachers that helped me along for these past 4 years, especially my Sec 3 and 4 teachers. Thank you all.

I've decided to join Talentime with Cheryl... I'll try my very best to do well =)

Choir was super fun for wed, thurs and today... =)Had fun together with 11S01 as well. I feel quite happy to be in this school =)

Our SYF Choice pieces

Mr Low just decided on this =)

2011-03-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Enjoyed myself in this Choir session ;)

2011-03-09T20:36:00.003+08:00

Had Choir today, Mr Low couldn't come again =( But Hannah taught us Dawn Wind =)

2011-02-19T18:13:00.003+08:00

Actually all these time I was in JJC, I made loads of friends. And I'm feeling happy and comfortable in this school. I think I made the correct decision, . Currently, I'm in JJC Choir and I've learnt a lot (example, vibrato, how to project using nasal, etc) and had enjoyed myself there n Choir and 11S01.

2011-02-05T17:43:00.003+08:00

The 100th Post lOl.

I really admire Charice a lot-for her determination to achieve her dreams.

Plus, I miss AJ and AJChoir. Now considering whether to join JJC Choir... Lectures and lessons have started.

2011-02-03T16:16:00.002+08:00

This is the first CNY I spent without my dad. Everything seems so wierd and different now.

Currently in JJC, I feel that I miss AJC and JSS a lot. I don't know whether this is the right decision to make or not.

2011-01-31T20:53:00.001+08:00

I got accepted into JJC Science, 4H2. There's no more looking back...

2011-01-30T17:12:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking to transfer out of AJC.

The 1 hour plus travelling to AJC is really taking a toll on me (leave home at 6am). I don't even have the energy to eat, let alone study. Plus the fact that Choir prac ends at 7.30pm or even extends to 8pm, I'll reach home at 10pm. No doubt the school is good and ranked as the 6th JC, it was my privilage to enter there.

The only thing that I'm happy about being in AJC is that I got into the AJ Choir and have a chance to learn under Mr Nelson Kwei. The first 2.5 hours I spent in choir, I really enjoyed myself and enjoyed the learning. The songs I learn there in this short period of time was a whole new experience in my choral experience. I totally enjoyed it. I know I'm passing out on a good learning experience and on a chance that not everyone can get/experience.
And I really hope that I'll have another chance to learn from him, but for now, academics have to be placed in the first priority.

Therefore, I decided to transfer to JJC. And yes, I've think about it long and deep.

Charice

2011-01-25T16:03:00.005+08:00

Charice gave me inspiration that if you dare to dream and work towards it, you can do it. Thank you Charice.

Thank you very much to my family and Miss Goh for always being there, caring, giving advices and encouragements :)

2011-01-11T15:30:00.002+08:00

Life is sure tough. O level results were out yesterday.

-English B3
-Combined Humanities B3
-Elementary Mathematics A1
-Additional Mathematics A1
-Physics A1
-Chemistry A1
-Biology A1
-Chinese B3
-Chinese (oral/aural) Merit

L1R5=10 - 2 bonus points = L1R5 8

I'm kind of pretty much upset about my English, Humans and Chinese. It's like even though I put in effort when reaching the end, I didn't get what I expected. On the contrary, I'm happy with my triple Sciences and double math.

It's pretty much like I've got what I wanted and yet I didn't get what I want. What an irony...

In life, there's no guarantee that you would get what you always wanted. But I'm glad that I got to go on stage to receive my results. However, I'm kind of short of a few points to go NJC and ACJC (1 point only =( )

He's not talking to me. But he did well in his O levels. Viola did quite good as well

Maybe I'm too hung up on it. But it's worth a try. Appeal!!!

2011-01-06T15:18:00.003+08:00

Recently, I found out that my clique and I have drifted apart. I begun to feel like it was a mistake from the start and that I do not belong there. Even he drifted away. Feelings of lost is like engulfing me. Should I reconcile with them?

Yesterday, one of my school teachers told my younger sister that she need to see our parents if she do not want to join sports. It's like I realise that the phrase your/our/my parents do not apply to me at all. Cause I don't know where my dad is. But deep down, I'm hoping that he would be happier now.

O level results are out on Mon. I've got mixed feelings about it. I on't know if I can achieve my goals. But one thing for sure is that my dad will probably not see it.

2010-12-29T13:02:00.003+08:00

From my last post to now, a lot of things have been changing in my life. The most significant one is that my beloved daddy has passed away. All this while, I've been holding my tears. But it doesn't change a fact that this wound is still raw. Every single time I think of my father, I just feel close to tears and yet I know I can't cry. Every single person in my family have been trying to cope with this with this fact in their own ways. One morning, I was awoken up by my mother crying. We are all trying to adjust to a life without him and I'm not afraid to admit, I miss my daddy. Every single time, in Robinsons, I hear kids calling for their father, I will think of mine. Some people who still have both their parents complain about their parents not giving them enough money for them to buy clothes or CD but all this seems small and insignificant. I feel that they ought to take a step backwards and appreciate the fact that their parents are still alive.

At my father's funeral, I keep holding back my tears and tried to ignore and not believe the fact that my father is dead-even now. In my heart all along from young, my father has always been there for us when we needed him the most. I was in denial the fact that he's gone.

My father passed away peacefully on 4th December 2010, 3.55am, in his sleep. For many people who wonder why he passed on at the tender age of 48, below was his story of struggle.

At late September 2006-before my PSLE-my father was diagnose with a rare type of leukemia. The doctors gave him half a year to live if he does not seek treatment. He went through 6 rounds of chemotherapy. Finally at March 2007, he recieved a bone marrow transplant from my aunt. The transplant was a success. If not for my aunt and her blood, my father's life would have come to a premature end at the age 44 in 2006. My aunt's blood was suitable for my dad and prolong his life by 4 years.

Then my father had graft versus host disease and he went on immunosuppression drugs. Due to that he had multiple infection in his lungs. at 2008, he had fungal, bacterial and viral attack all at once on his lungs. The doctor then said they have not seen any one survive this multiple infection. But my dad fought on. He had hoped for the best and prepared for the worse. His left lungs burst and he underwent surgery. He even asked all his friends to take care of us if he cané go through this round. But he survived.

He went in and out of hospitals, during my streaming, Christmas, New year. His medication can cause a whooping $1-3K. He had a medication that cost $100/pill once.

At 2010, about 18 November, he entered NUH 1 last time due to infection on his lungs and graft versus host on his lungs leaving it 20% functional. Doctors predicted that he only have 4 days to 2 weeks. Even Dr Koh, who was optimistic all the way through this four years couldn't do anything. I've been to the hospital every day, not knowing when was the last time I could see my dad. I was trying to cope and yet in denial. My dad keep preparing us mentally for it. I've even seen the Medical Social Worker in NUH for counselling. Those days were the toughest. Each time the sun sets, we knew he had went through another. Each time the sun rises, we knew it was another day and beginning of the struggle.

At 4th December 12midnight, his BP dipped and my mum called saying the end was near. I didn't believed it. I was in denial and went into a fitful sleep. At 4am, my mum celled and my elder sister woke me up saying my father had passed away. I felt numbed. My sisters, cousins and I sat at the sofa, silent after the prayer. I was in a mess, an emotional mess. We went back to sleep at 5am. At7.30am, my mum, who was staying with my dad in NUH ward 58 Bed 7 returned. She was with my dad every night and day for more then 2 weeks. my mum sorted out the clothes for the ones to put in my dad's coffin. Once I saw them, I started crying. It was painful to tell people that he passed away. My aunt and granduncle came over early. I also typed out my dad's obituary. Around 11am, the undertakers brought my dad's body back from NUH. He looked like he was asleep. I half expected him to wake up. But deep down, I know he won't.Throughout the ritual, I kept crying. But soon after, I felt his presence. I didn't know how I got through these 5 days of the funeral wake (4th-8th). But all I knew was that I have to stay strong for my family.

All these while, I didn't tell anyone at school was because I didn't wanted people to be with me cause they pity me. I have been trying to cope but I was crying as I typed this. And I've got a phobia of ambulance as once in the middle of the night the paramedics brought my dad back to NUH, the fear of what went wrong made me frighten of it.

People always say time heals all wounds. But some wounds won't heal that easily especially if you've been in my place-I've lost my daddy at 16. I still miss him constantly and ask where is he but I never will know the answer.

2010-11-29T14:06:00.003+08:00

2010-11-28T23:39:00.003+08:00

This song is played by an orchestra and it's super meaningful, calming and soothing.

From my favourite band. This is for my parents. Thank you so much for raising me up. No matter where they go, I'll still think of them fondly, especially for my dad. Much as I can't bear to let him go, I know I'll have to soon. All I can do is to thank him and that I love both my parents dearly. They raised me up to more then I can be. There's loads I want to tell you. But for now, hope that you'll go to a happier place. Thank you daddy for all you've provided me, I'll miss you and love you.

2010-11-26T22:13:00.003+08:00

Today I went to NUH to visit my dad. I really hope that he will perform another miracle-to survive, recover and get well soon. He's very important to me and I can't afford to lose him simply cause I love my dad so much.

Everything seems like meaningless when my dad is at this state but I know, he wants us to live our lives normally but every single thing we do, it will inevitably make us think of him. That's how important he is to us and how much we miss him.

I went to the Health Promotion Board today to have my follow-up appointment and I'm discharged.

And I don't really like people taking my work or stuff and claiming it as theirs.

Much as how much I'm being saddened by my dad's state, I have to remain strong and not let him see my tears.

Cause I really hope and believe that my dad get well soon =)

2010-11-26T01:21:00.002+08:00

All I really want, hope and wish now is that my dad will get well soon. That's all I want now. My dad's really important to me, that's why I really want him to get well soon

2010-11-23T15:56:00.003+08:00

Saiunkoku Monogatari ending song

This was the song in Shugo Chara that renewed my passion for song and Music =)

2010-11-22T13:23:00.009+08:00

If things were not meant to be, we ought to let go. That's what I've learn. And yet letting go is tough and it requires courage. Do I really have the courage?

Resolution

2010-11-12T14:50:00.008+08:00

O Levels are ending soon =) All we have done in these 2 years were all for this right? Somewhat like the final showdown.

I suddenly realised that sometimes whatever we love and yearn to have, we may not get it at all. Sometimes letting go will enable the other party to be happy and that's all that matters. Even if we love something, it doesn't mean that we have to possess it or even can have it. Much as you desperately need it or want it, it may not belong to you. When you think you finally have it, it can disappear in an instant... Even so, I won't blame anyone. I'll just let fate take its course and appreciate and treasure what I have now and what I used to have...

We just have to be ourselves-have our own dreams, live our own lives-be who we truly are and what we want to be. Live our lives for ourselves and not for others, strive for our dreams, pursue our dream.

"Hold fast to your dreams. For when dreams die, life becomes a broken-winged bird that cannot fly" This was what Ms Ow Yong told me when I was Sec 2. And I agree

Whatever we do, we have to put our best foot forward and do our best. Enjoy whatever you do ;) Never give up and persevere on

And I'm going to put braces. I have already had the first appointment and done a mold and X-ray. =)

I have also decided to go back to the Choir to help out. After all that's what I wanted to do =) And I'm gonna put in much more effort into my Violin, Music and singing.

I'll let things be. What counts is being true to yourself =)

Whatever will be will be. But for now, BIO~~~ LAST PAPER: BIO!!!

2010-10-13T19:40:00.001+08:00

Time is ticking by. I still haven't done what I promised myself. So why??

End of Grad 2

2010-09-21T18:07:00.002+08:00

Today marks the end of the grueling Graduation Examinations 2 but also marks the beginning of another arduous journey ahead with 30+ days left-The O Levels...

One thing I totally find irritating is my indecisiveness-during examination, at the very last minute I changed my answer then it strike me that my very first original answer was then the correct one and I changed it to the wrong one and it did not only happen once but loads of times which makes me feel even more frustrated. Is it my confidence that had dipped or mainly my indecisiveness?

Another is that I ought to have and cultivate more patience-which is truly needed! Furthermore, I ought to be more open-minded at times to see from others' point of view and stand in their shoes and to forgive and forget. And yet the feeling of being made used of by people have not subsided;instead it became stronger and more persistent. The reason alone is unclear by even myself-it's just constantly at the brink of my mind;usually during examination periods. No matter what I do, people would just insist on me to aid them and forsake my own thing. But do I even ought to do that and let myself sink? These uncertainties just get into me-why does it resurface at the critical periods? Why do people insist on their own way and stay conceited and self-centered? Am I to allow them to drag me down or am I to brush them off and go do my things? Why can't I stick to my decision and banish them to the back of my mind in due course just cause I became weak? Shouldn't I become stronger, stand on my own feet and become stronger? Are those people even my friends or are they just staying with me just cause of benefits? Why does this situation keep repeating itself like a cycle-round and round it goes, when will it stop and when can I break through? Why am I always the odd-one-out? Why do I get criticised or shunned when i tell the truth about things-like when people are out of tune or they answer is wrong or their viewpoints are wrong? Are we suppose to keep everything within our hearts-never to be expressed? Why do people accuse me off things I never do? Why do people betray others? When will all these doubts be straightened out?

What will be my future career or my dream career? Everyone knows what they want to major in-but not me. I guess I'll just follow my heart and do what I do best when the time comes.

All I just know is that I'm extremely fortunate to have a family like mine whom you can pour your hearts to and make it as right as rain. =)

Now, I have to put my heart and brains in, it's the last lap. Regardless of what others think, this is my resolution-to study hard and smart NOT mug. I'm not and never will be a mugger. I will ignore those people that I think just want to bring my morale down just so they can trample on me and take advantage-that's the world and I just experienced it. I must learn not to be so trusting and too nice to people-I can only trust my family, close friends and close teachers with all my heart.

Tata =) After Wed, I shall work on my mistakes and errors in my papers to strive for perfection and do my very best :D

Adelene

2010-08-14T20:17:00.001+08:00

I am determined to do well for my academics =)

But for now, I'm taking a break to watch YOG Opening. Once in a lifetime experience =)

2010-07-06T11:01:00.002+08:00

On 3rd July [Mr Boay's Wedding]

This was the very first time I performed Violin in the public... It was super enjoyable an meaningful day to me =) Stella and I reached the place at around 8am. Had to wake up at 6 to get there. But it's all worth it...When I reached there, I started practicing after Stella tuned my violin (TY!!!) and I skipped the breakfast Mr Boay bought. Nevertheless, thank you for the meal =) It was pretty eventful =) The wedding was awesome =) And I guess what people say is true-a girl will be most beautiful at her very own wedding-when I saw Mr Boay's wife-Ms Lin.

Today:

Grad Exam 1 all over. Can take a short break and have to take out the books soon... Cause O level Chinese Oral is on this Friday! And I'm not ready.

Today is much of a reflective day for me... I reflect upon a lot of things...

I'm reading Lin Dee's blog and it dawned upon me that i may be losing my Primary School best friends and good friends just cause i didn't keep in touch with them and furthermore some of them are really awesome friends and to think that in the past i used to not cherish the friendship I had and now, that we are all entangled in our own life, I sorta missed the times we spent together.

I used to take my family love for granted but now, I started to feel the meaning, the beauty and appreciate it... Through what I had experience, I had grew and matured, learning how to appreciate the beauty of things and not always focusing on what I don't have but what I have...I had learnt how to appreciate people, truly cherish and love them from the bottom of my heart..

I also feel that I should think carefully before I do things and not be so rash...

I had received my English, Chinese and Emath Grad exam 1 results long time ago. I'm pretty much disappointed with myself. I feel that I can do much better but what kind of results I'm getting? You may say I'm a perfectionist or a nerd but I really did fall short of my expectations. I've gotta buck up before it's too late.

My Quote for today: "Give it our all and you'll never regret"

Adelene

2010-06-27T18:09:00.003+08:00

GAMBATTE!!! I must strive on, no matter how much I want to procrastinate, slack and run away.

Jiayous, just 1 more week and then I'll clear GE1!!!!

On 25th June,

I went to Pizza Hut for lunch with Hui Hui and Asher. Then we head to Dover to meet Viola. We walked to MLT1 with some SP volunteers (Thank you) and had a briefing there. Then Viola and I drank lemonade =D, Asher ate eclair and Hui Hui ran off idk where during our tea break. It was almost the same food offered the last time when Ding Feng, Caroline, Asher, Ms Lam and I were there. But no complains. The food is nice =D Then we had another briefing. Hui Hui and I together won 1 bottle of perfume and Viola won hers =). It's nice.

Then we went to the lab. We wore lab coats. For once I felt like a proper student Chemist =P We had to identify 8 bottles of bases by smell =) then we made body wash. We mixed the gel-like base with water and added salt solution (10% NaCl) to make it viscous.

After that, we went to mix fragrance using the base(s) there. I added apple fragrance and CK fantasy concept to my body wash. But SP gave us such small bottle that Viola and I decided to use it as hand soap.

They brought us into sort of a fragrance lab. And it's super cool and had the perfumer table I saw in TYH's comic book!!! Hui Hui was the "model" to "parade" the Romance I perfume-the romance series is made by SP students. She didn't like hers but Viola and I think it was nice =)

After that Viola and I shared a cup of Mr Bean Soya Ice cream in Dover MRT. Hui Hui drank soya bean milk. Then, we went to JE and Hui Hui bought a perfume bottle (purple in hello kitty shape) and Viola poured half of the perfume into her bottle and half left in mine.

Took 198 home...

2010-06-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

I certainty MUST stop procrastinating if I really do want to score well. STRIVE!!!! But I always don't feel like mugging~~~ *shakes head* MUST CHANGE THAT MIND SET!

Didn't study at all today. Was up until 1++am reading a book. And reading the whole of today. Went to Viola's house to unload her stuff =D Have to find Stella to unload~

Was like reuniting with old primary school friends, tagging them on facebook =) Rekindling our long lost friendship. It's super duper lovely to keep in touch with good friends =D Must keep up the effort!!!

~ Adelene

2010-06-23T21:36:00.000+08:00

I have to work hard from now onwards and put my best foot forwards

*determined*

~ Adelene

Today

2010-06-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

I reached school at around 8 like that and went to the Panel Room and Mdm Zheng was already there-early bird :D.

Mdm Zheng asked us to go and share our questions (instead of woe) to be more efficient. Kudos!! Then halfway, Mr Nur and was like this room is used for IDK what meeting and we were chased out... Mdm Zheng went to get the key to AVA. I "stole" my gan jie's stuff (but I gave her back like less than 5 min later). And went we went in, we sat in tables and then she (Mdm Zheng) changed strategy. She told us to throw out questions we have on the 2009 paper. Then she go through on the board. At 10.25am, we were let off with the promise that the answer key will be posted on facebook! =)

Then Miss R. Lim went MIA. Couldn't find her for the form... Miss Lappen went to class for the lesson... She practically almost chased all of us up. She went through SEQ techniques. And finish around 11.30++ am. Then it was Q&A. Hui Hui practically drove Asher up the wall. I had consultation with Miss Lappen and she went through what she think was weak (LINK) and went through weighing =)

At around 12nn , I went to find Mr Boay, he was outside the staff room. He just gave me some guidelines to answer AO3 questions. And he said I have to do questions or else he can't help me =X

Bumped into Miss Lim, she just did Lasik. She say they cut and flipped the cornea... Now her eyes look a bit bloodshot. We took worksheets and the SP course form =)

After that, I went to AVA. Mdm Zheng was teaching Hui Hui and Asher was trying to find out a shortcut method to solve the question :) Had fun :) But Mdm Zheng didn't eat her breakfast =( Left around 1+...

Went Pepper Lunching with Hui Hui and Asher. We were like the salmon pepper rice trio. I had Green tea drink with Matcha ice cream to cap it off =)

I went NTUC after that to buy snacks for my sisters and went Harris, Unimax, Popular to see books... Wanna buy~

I had fun today. Thank you to all the teachers and friends.

Watch Bleach :)

Adelene - Have to seriously start studying and mugging. I have been slacking~~~ Gambatte =D

2010-06-06T21:57:00.003+08:00

This will be a super short post. I'm going to Singapore Flyer this Friday with my family and go around Singapore~~~

These are the 4 tickets here =)

Gonna start my mugging tomorrow. Kinda not looking forward to it... But I MUST do it for my own good =X I dislike mugging =(

My Violin teacher said my sound and intonation improved~~ And I spent the whole day playing Gaia zOMG and transposing Panis Angelicus-which I haven't complete the piano part... I played Allemenda by Vivaldi today~~

Adelene :)

MUST GAMBATTE!!!

Determined

2010-06-04T18:49:00.004+08:00

Finally, it's the holidays!!! =)

But this time, I have made a resolution. I'm gonna make notes, do practice papers and MUG!!! Although I'm not a mugger by nature, I have to force myself to do it!!! For the sake of Graduation Exams and O levels!!! I have to start making notes before it's too late.

And I saw that someone beat me by a margin of 1/2 marks, I felt very "bu shuang". I guess it's cause of my character-I don't like people winning me, I must win and emerge the champ!!! Regardless of what hard work I have to go through. It's like my intelligence level is higher and yet just because of my negligence, complacency and laziness, she beat me. I won't allow that to happen again. I will strive and FLATTEN her!!!

I guess what all of my teachers and my parents said is true. Why do I allow my intelligence to go to waste? I should work hard and get into all the best schools I can enter...

I'm gonna put my best foot forward and get L1R5 6!!! All A1!!!

And after my O, I can concentrate on Music and Violin and get Distinction in ABRSM Grade 5.

And yes, i case if you haven't know by now, I have a competitive spirit and I'm a perfectionist. I want perfection and expect the best out of myself. I want to excel in everything I do...

GAMBATTE!!!! I am determined!!! Nothing can change my mind...

But rest assured I will take some well-deserved breaks if I do think I deserve it. And now is 1 instance =P

I noticed that I'm a super fast learner that grasp every fact I learn and understand easily~~~ And I know, believe and trust I can do well...

2010-05-31T21:43:00.003+08:00

O levels today =X

Kinda having mixed emotions about it hahas.

Initially, I was feeling nervous, anxious and don't feel prepared at all.

When I entered the examination room, my mind and heart immediately calmed down and I was actually emotionally stable-neither nervous nor anxious. The compo Mdm Lee had gone through a similar question in class whereas the SW Ms Wong went through the format with me before the paper. So my heart was soothed. But as the teacher collect my paper I noticed that I had a wrong word written but whatever will be, will be...

After that, I begin to slack~

I was pretty much very relaxed at paper 2 and took my own sweet time at the front and spent 1/2 hour on each open-ended comprehension... But at the last few minutes I started panicking again as I still had 3 more questions and left 15min!! I rushed through and in the end I completed and relaxed...

After the paper, I felt like a burden was lifted from my shoulders... Chinese is ending whahaha. No more Chinese =P I still prefer English to Chinese and I believe that many of my friends and classmates will agree...

So O level Chinese over!!! But another thing to worry about, the return of English prelims paper which I screwed up!!! =X

Adelene

Random

2010-05-28T20:47:00.005+08:00

Hello

I spent my Vesak day lazing around but hey it's the start of the June Holiday (for some lucky people) and also to take a break. Cause O levels Chinese is round the corner, must take a break then can chiong and mug although I hate mugging... Jiayou!!! Hahas, must get it over and done with. I wanna A1 =P. So must jiayou. Gonna memorize good phrases, idioms, old sayings, points and format... I must also not make stupid careless mistakes and that cause myself to lose marks-especially over wrong words. All the best to everyone including myself =P

Choir practice on 2nd and 4th June 9-12?? I forgot the time =X Anyways, gonna drop by during my break time. Still have 1 more week of school =X

The prize presentation in school for the materials superstar was FINALLY carried out yesterday after changing the date like 5 or more times haha. But the SC people did something wrong and we stun there cause it's different from what Ms Lam had briefed us. Then Ms Lam saw and came over, saving us =D. After that there was the reflection speech which all of us dreaded. But Caroline read the most then DF. Sher and I just stood there at the podium listening. Actually I was looking around.

And my mock SPA got 8 *emo* It was below my expectations. There's a Chemistry related course held at SP at the exact same place where the competition was held. I wanna go~~~ And my E Math was way way below my own expectations...

Sometimes, I wonder, am I being too hard on myself?

Anyways, updated the vocal group blog (I know some people must have thought,'Finally this girl did it'. But hey, cut me some slack).

I met Miss Goh today at Clementi and she passed me my testimonial that she wrote. Thank you very much Miss Goh, it was really extremely nicely written furthermore, she even gave me advices and coached me *touched*

I must gambatte. Gonna try out DSA. Please wish me good luck and that I get into the JC which I wanted and wished for badly =X *Prays hard*

GTG, I know this post is super super random =X

Seeya

Adelene <3

To my mother~~~

2010-05-09T19:33:00.001+08:00

To: My beloved mother...

Mummy, Happy Mother's Day!!!

You and daddy have given me the best present of my life and it will always be the best one. That gift was presented to me on 22/04/1994 the day where you brought me into this world and from that day onwards, you gave me your love, care, concern, encouragements, advices, help, enlightenment...... You also taught me values, morals, discipline that help guide my life and mould it. You have and always will be great and the best mum I ever met... =) Cheers XD

Adelene

Chemistry & Material Sciences Competition

2010-05-01T15:45:00.007+08:00

24th April

We won!!!!

I arranged to meet Asher early to go through a few last minute stuff at 7.30am. In the end, I can't find my umbrella so I was late. Was there at only 7.45am. We walked to the MRT and was there exactly 8am. DF and Caroline were early and DF smsed us =P

Caroline and Asher had the sense to print out the map. We got to the location super early at 8.30am that no one was there except us... DF and Caroline went to eat their breakfast, Asher and I was sitting at the stairs waiting for registration. After registration at 9am, we went into the lecture hall... After listening to some talks, we headed for practical.

Practical was separating 5 different type of polymers mixed together. Time allocated: 1 hour. Time completed: 20min!! =D We stirred and use a drainer to take out the polymer. Rule: no using of hands. We scooped out the first, then added salt in the water to increase the density and scoop out the next. Add salt scoop and the process continued. At some time, we added salt but the next polymer couldn't float and DF said, "Gan gan lai" and emptied the small bowl of salt into it.. At the 2nd last polymer, the solution was super saturated. Our last sample was full of salt!!! In the end we finished first!!! But there's 2 impurities-ie other polymer. So deduct 2. So we got 48-> converted to 10 pt.

Oral was woah!!! The Chemistry question was easy!!! We learnt it in school. We went through 3 rounds and emerged the champ. Our team kept choosing advanced questions and got them correct. And there's a question that was JC level, I answered correctly. And the audience was like wah!!! Cause our team keep getting advanced questions correct =) so 198-> 10pt

Then during prize presentation, we found out we got the highest marks for theory too, so 10pt. We won!! We got all the trophies. We got best in theory, oral, practical and overall champ and $450 cash.

All Trophies

Best in Theory, Oral and practical

Our group was like totally enjoying ourselves and keep laughing. The other schools were super serious and uptight. So our motto is: Happy go lucky :D

28th April
He finally told me he likes me =) But I told him that if he really likes me and wants to be with me, he has to wait until I'm in uni. Cause 1)I'm not ready 2)O levels 3)It's a promise to my family members. I also told him that if he finds another girl he likes better before that time comes, go ahead and chase her, don't mind me...

Adelene

My birthday

2010-04-23T21:27:00.005+08:00

22nd April 2010

Pictures click HERE

=) Thank you very much to
01)My Family-mum,dad,jie and Kim =)
02)My gan jie-Kathie =)
03)My onee-chan-Viola =)
04)Asher =)
05)My god bro who shares the same birthday as me =)
06)My 2 gan mei-Min Hui and Shi Chian =)
07)Yi Hong
08)Celina
09)Stella
10)Hui Hui
11)Solai
12)Jaswen-same birthday
13)Farah
14)Wai Teng
15)4-5'10
16)People who wished me

You all made this day super enjoyable and memorable to me. I'll always hold this memory close to my heart. It's the 2nd best birthday celebration I had.

The best was 16 years ago in 1994 when my parents deliver me into this world. Thank you very much =)

Note: ... means other msg =)

At 21/4 8.49 Yong keat: happy birthday (:
At 22/4 12.18am Joyce Happy Birthday!
At 22/4 12.48am Hui Yun: YO!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! XDXD
At 22/4 5.45am Viola: Hi ah. Happy Birthday
At 22/4 5.57am Jin Han: Oh Thanks. Happy birthday to you too!
At 22/4 6.01am Stella: Hi happy first16th morning! :)
At 22/4 6.07am Farah: Happy 16th Birthday! May all your wishes come true :)
At 22/4 6.26am Asher: haha. Happy birthday, dearest jie ^^
At 22/4 6.40am Lian Xin: Happy birthday!!
At 22.4 7.13am Mdm Zheng: ... And, happy birthday to you! Wish all ur dreams come true! :)
At 22/4 9.05am Vicky Ng happy b'day(:
At 22/4 11.08 Yi Hong: HAPPY BIRTHDAY. ...
At 22.4 12.47 Karen Ho: ... Happy birthday!!!
At 22/4 2pm Lim Jing: Yoo adel~ happy birthday!! haha
At 22/4 4.31pm Wai Teng: Happy birthday Adelene! ...
At 22/4 4.54 Shirley Quek
At 22/4 6.11 Daphne Khoo: happy bday! :D
At 22/4 6.23 Jody: Happy Birthday!
At 22/4 6.30 Min Hui: Happy sweet 16:)
At 22/4 6.32 Grace Leow: Hey! Happy birthday to you!!! :DDD ...
At 22/4 6.34 Grace Leow:HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!!! Best Wishes from ME to YOU!!! =DDD may all your dreams come true! =)
At 22/4 6.409 Han Yun :HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELENE! :) jiayou for your os, and happy everyday :)
At 22/4 6.50pm Germaine Happy birthday! ... I hope that all yr wishes and dreams come true!:) Happy 16th birthday
At 22/4 8.09 Steph Happy Birthday! :D
At 22/4 8.30pm Yi Yun HEY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! <3
At 22/4 8.33 CM: hey hey happy birthday!!!!stay sweet and cheery!love ya loads!! <3<3
At 22/4 9.01 Arfian: Happy birthday =)
At 22/4 10.15 Min Hui:Hope you enjoyed your first day of being a 16 :) ...
At 22/4 11.07 Kelly HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! :DDD WOOO! xD

Thank you so much =) I really enjoyed myself, especially during the party during recess, after school and at home =)

I really appreciate those who celebrate and made this day memorable to me. Thank you :) Love ya all =)

When I left the school after the party, I saw a rainbow!!!

PSPS: See the photos. Picture speaks a thousand words.

Had words of wisdom handed down to me from both my parents =)

Adelene =D

Chemistry & Material Sciences Competition

2010-04-17T18:01:00.010+08:00

On Wednesday,

Asher, Ding Feng, Caroline and I had a leave form from Miss Lam from 12.15pm onwards.
We met outside the explorers lab and Ding Feng said he wanted to eat pizza, so we called Miss Lam and told her we are heading to SP first to eat. So we went to take 154 and MRT. Outside, we saw the second group representing JSS from 3-5. They are waiting for taxi. Ding Feng was talking to them, in the distance, I saw the bus and was like "bus!" and we dashed for the bus stop and yes, we got on the bus =)

AT JE, the other group called and told us that they arrived >:(

We reached Dover and went into SP and we were like OMG, so big, ok, we are lost. haha. Saw Wei Yang... And we tried to find our way ourselves. In the end, we gave up, I called Hui Yun, and she gave directions. Thanks Yun =D

We waited for ages for our pizza. Asher treated us to pizza and drink-I had milk green tea. Thank you so much :)

We gobbled down our pizza and dashed out!! We are gonna be late. We walked and walked and wondered around. At last we found the block. Then Ding Feng had to call his friend from the other team to bring us to the auditorium. =X

We were late but Miss Lam was later!!! :)

I took out H2 Chemistry and started reading as Fuhua people were doing JC stuff too. Read until I had headache =P Asher sat beside me... And there was a lecture going on. Have to borrow from Caroline and Ding Feng's notes =P During the lecture, they asked some questions such as what polymer could be used to make a tennis racket. Asher and I decided to be funny and told Miss Lam Francium. haha. Then we will have an explodingly fun and dangerous game =P

Then, they told reserves and teachers to gather as they were going on a lab tour as we did the theory challenge. We waved a sorrowfully drama goodbye to Caroline and Miss Lam. When it started, I detached the question paper and distribute it to Ding Feng and Asher. I stunned at the question paper as they asked what is the MP for polyethylene... Asher stunned cause he forgotten the reactivity series of halides. So we changed plan. I passed them all the ones regarding polymers, nanomaterial, biomaterials and green technology while they passed me all the Chemistry questions. As I did the Chemistry component, I was like "Are you kidding me?" The stuff are all Sec 3 work =D It was so much easier then I expected as I thought we will kena sabo and get JC stuff... I breezed through all Chemistry questions except 1 where I messed up my negative number line which was spotted by Asher. =X Then after I complete the Chemistry part, I wrote it on the answer sheet and asked Sher and DF to pass me the done ones. Asher and DF breeze through all except 1 or 2 questions =)

After that, we had refreshments...

We had a speech by the organizer and the Certificate of participation was given to us. Then announcement of the top 8 teams out of the 30++ teams that attended. We got in!!! Caroline and I screamed out of joy =P Caroline called me the Chemistry goddess which isn't true!!! =X

Miss Lam sent us to JP on her car. She listens to Chinese radio station. haha.

Finals on 24th April 2010

Anyway,

To Miss Lam,
Thank you very much for giving me the opportunity to enter this competition. I will do my best, rest assured.

To my god br0 (the one born on 151094),
Thanks for the help. You did contributed a lot... =D Couldn't have done it without you.

To Asher, Caroline and DF
Thank you so much, I really enjoyed working with you all. =) Glad that I had the opportunity to meet and work with you guys. I had a great fun hanging out with you all. :) jiayou for the finals, we can do it. Let's aim for the championship. and Caroline, I think you have to do more notes as DF always say "Caroline notes says that..." =D Thank you for the hard work plus contribution and sacrifices you made and let's strive on!!! We are and will always be one team =)

Adelene
~5 more days to my birthday on 22nd. I currently 15 years and 360 days old =P

Choir Performance =)

2010-04-12T22:15:00.011+08:00

On Saturday (10th April)
Asher, Esmond (catalyst) and Jen met at JP at 7.30am. Mummy drove us to NJC for the Secondary School Mathematics Competition. We reached there and was like wow! We ARE lost. Where to go? And worst come to worst, our uniform looked similar almost identical to the NJC's uniform. And the NJC people just let us go by ourselves and wonder around. Esmond, Asher and I tried to figure out the map until Jen convinced us to give up and ask someone for directions. In the end, we asked 2 guys for directions and they sweetly went with us, to lead us there. Thank you =)

Then we reached there and we were like wow! So many people. We saw NJC (duh), NYGH, NHHS, NUS High, Cresent Girls, HCI, CHS, RGS RI, etc. Then Asher went to register us. To our ~~horror, amazement~~ astonishment, Mr Ooi had not paid the registration fee. Asher then took out $20 to pay. We went in their auditorium

It's their Performing Arts theatre. We went to take our seats. I sat between Asher and Jen. Then, I panicked and asked Asher to do a quick revision. Jen saw and she panicked too... At 9.10am, the written paper began. I saw some of the questions and I stunned there.

10.10am, the paper ended and we went down for refreshments. At 11am, we went back and they showed us a video and the top 6 teams were announced

HCI, RGS, RI, NUS, CHS, ACSI

We watched the 1st oral round "warm up" round. I sat between Esmond and Asher. Jen was surfing the net. HCI and CHS got 0 and 10 points respectively and were out. Sher knew how to do a question that RGS chose to skip.

Second round, NUS and ACSI were out.

Audience round, a guy from NUS high won 2 out of the 3 prizes. And the last question sher got the correct ans.

Last round, the buzzer round. The emcee announced the round to start and RI guys was like "where is our mike" ... LOL haha. RGS competed against RI. RI won.

Then Sher, Esmond and I were brought around the school by a NJC J1 student. She's super nice =) We went to take 157 to my mum's office to eat mac =) Then we had meal, i ate Fillet upsize with green tea and spicy shaker fries while sher had nuggets with super upsized coke and esmony had mcchicken. We talked crap and ate a cone ice cream each as we walked in Cold storage. Sher nearly fainted so we headed to the bus stop. I insisted that we waited for 174. And 4-5 154 passed by and Esmondy got so frustrated and decided to text Iris and the moment he clicked sent, the bus came and he was so furious =P

On Sunday,
the choir had our performance at the Arts House.

Min Hui, Shi Chian and I met at the Boon Lay bus interchange in JP at 11am. We went to Chamelon as I forgot to take my rubber band out. Bought the rubber band which Min Hui "promoted" at $0.50 haha. Then we took our own sweet time and walked around JP until 11.30++, then we decided to take the MRT to Raffles Place as Chian and I were too full to eat lunch yet =P We got off at Raffles and saw the one whole gang of Sec 1s. Chian, Min Hui and I went to Esplande library to eat honey baked chicken rice. I added honey milk tea. In the distance, I could hear a melodious piano playing <333

We were late and went for rehearsal. The rehearsal ended at 2.45pm. And I panicked cause I lack warm up and couldn't jumped to the B. Miss Goh was like "I thought you were going to warm up at home" opps!!!

I went to the toilet and did some last min warm up and voila, my voice was warmed up. Our choir went up first.We started off with the love of a song, followed by Tiger, then Hear the Music, Fire, Gather ye Roses, Now is the month of Maying, Hine Ma Tov and Celebration of life. I made mistakes in my actions for love of a song and tiger tiger =X

I was the emcee for Now is the Month of Maying. "Do you know what pop songs are like in the 16th century? Thomas Morley composed a madrigal based on the text by Orazio Vecchi. That madrigal sent the whole England singing in the late Renaissance era. That pop song is called Now is the Month of Maying"

However, I totally immersed myself in the Music. The Music and I were as one totality, one being. I felt the Music within me, running, and tried my best to convey it, spread the music and its meaning. We are like 2 halves of an entity. Yes, I love and enjoy music, singing, violin and performing on stage. The stage felt like my 2nd home. I feel like I belong there

At Hine ma tov, I was super touched by the music and nearly cried. And celebration of life, I managed the B very well =D

After that we had debrief and Miss Goh, Ms Teoh, Mrs Chong and Mr Tham spoke to us. I spoke to Mr Aidil and he asked me "you from Sop1 right?" And he noticed that I nearly cried.

After that my family and I went to Douby Ghaut.

I realised the importance of Music and the reason why I joined Choir in the first place. Through this experience, it strengthened and renewed my passion for music, song and choir. I found out that I had the ability the submerge myself into the Music and express it. Miss Goh agreed with that and said I did expressed the music only that I was sharp-I got too emotional =P. I decided that I will join choir again in JC and Miss Goh say that hopefully some other instructors can solve my problems and bring out my potential more. I would like to thank Ms Teoh, Mrs Chong and Miss Goh for giving me this opportunity, for encouraging us and making this come true and the audience and people who came for their support. I will continually convey and spread the music and the song and enjoying myself in the process

To my dearest mum and dad and sisters:
Thank you very much for all your support, encouragements, care concern and everything you guys have done for me. Thank you so much for always being there for me in everything I do. Love you guys.

To my dearest god-bro, you should know who you are:
I'm super super sorry that I caused you to not enter the oral round. But deep down in my heart I know and believed that you deserve and able to enter the oral round and score. Love ya

To my dearest gan meis,
Thank you for all the fun and support =) Jiayou in your choral journey. Hope that you 2 will grow to become a good chorister and soloist that can convey and spread the Music. Use your ears and your heart, feel the music, hear the music... Love ya

To my dearest gan jie,
Even though you wasn't there physically, thank you very much for always being there spiritually for me. During speech day, I was looking at you and you were looking at me. We are continually looking out and being proud of each other but we missed each other. But I wanna let you know, thank you for all you have done for me. thanks for noticing me and being my jie. I will always remember what you said. Get well soon, Kathie jie. Love ya.

Adelene

Concert!!!

2010-04-02T17:57:00.003+08:00

Lol Haven't posted for ages.

11th April the Choir have a public performance 3-4pm Anyone interested to come? It's at Art House, tickets are priced at $10. Please do come and support =)

Anyway, will post about my March holidays some other day. I know this is like super delayed action, but yeah =D

Date:	Saturday, May 15, 2010
Time:	7:30pm - 9:30pm
Location:	Yong Siew Toh Conservatory, Concert Hall

Description

The Nanyang String Ensemble proudly presents:

“Diluculum: A new beginning”
Conductor: Mr. Trevor Sze
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Jean Sibelius: Andante Festivo

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart: Violin Concerto No. 4 in D major, K. 218
Soloist: Tan Tingwei

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart: Concerto for Flute, Harp, and Orchestra in C major, K. 299
Soloists: Wang Tong (flute) and Katryna Tan (harp)

Gareth Walters: Divertimento for String Orchestra
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Tickets sold at $10 each. Please contact nyseexco0910@gmail to place orders (:
Dress: Smart Casual

April Fools
Firstly, was Math lesson. The whole class turned the tables and faced the back of theclass. and the back door was locked, Mdm Zheng came in and was like "You all how old already, Sec 4 le. Never give me chalk or liquid paper how I write(PS: on the black noticeboard)."

Kin Hun say" Use Blood"

Mdm Zheng say " ok, II'm still waiting for your blood"

Kin Hun say"Oh, my blood very ex, use yours"

Then the whole class coughed.

She said" but I like it, stay like this for the whole day. You all sit like this for the whole lesson. Girls turn this way, boys turn that way, 180 degrees."

Then we sat there for half the lesson like that. And her April fool's joke was a class test but she didn't intend to mark it :X

Secondly, English lesson. Our whole class told Mrs Aidil we didn't bring the compre paper and she got so upset. "why? You all change back everyday is it"

"yes"

"I really want to go through this by today. I feel like crying. Why you all never bring"

"Cause you say do oral"

"no I didn't"

"yes you did."

Marlyna said "Adelene say go JLP today"

"For what? I hate outdoor lessons. So warm. Adelene, did you say that"

"No" I said

"seriously, I have to finish this today"

She looked like she was going to cry and Wei en rose her hand and said "Happy April fool's"

She stunned there and looked at her watch, then went to her bag and took out her phone, looked at her phone.She looked super relieved and said "I never felt so happy going through a compre paper

Lala

2010-03-04T21:40:00.003+08:00

OMG

I got Vietnam briefing tomorrow.

And I'm feeling like watching Bleach~~~

I also want to watch concerts and movies.

It's kinda like I'm displeased and dissatisfied with something but I can't change it or do anything about it. It makes me feel more angry... It's super unfair. And I hope that people will stop sabo touching me and stop claiming my work as theirs. It just pisses me off. And people should learn to not be so act smart and egoistic. Just learn from your mistakes and move on. Not just harp on it as people hurt your ego just by pointing our your mistake. Be humble and learn from others to get better, not tread on others or be too complacent. And stop being such a hypocrite.

Anyways, Biology ASAP Make up on this Saturday 9.30-11am.

GTG. Will add more next time. Choir tomorrow and Math test

Finally vented my frustrations, I feel so much better =) Thank you. Chemistry SPA down, Physics to go. Gambatte!!! I'll do my best :)

Adelene ^^

Hello Update :)

2010-03-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

Really sorry for the late reply. Kind of promised myself that I will go online only necessary =P

But this is the plan

I'm going to Vietnam with the school on 13-16 March

Choir Camp 19 to 20 March I guess :X

That's the schedule for my March Holiday currently

I had Biology SPA last Wednesday, Chemistry today and Physics next Wednesday. Wish me luck :)

Kind of wanting to go watch concerts :)

BTW who in 4-5 wants extra Geography lesson, a slot is on Sunday 10-2pm. Anyone interested, please inform me :) via sms or in class

There are things I can't stand or am displeased about... And I can no longer close an eye to it. I can't stand it anymore!

Anyway, my studies are fine and I found out that I top the entire cohort for Chemistry :) But Ms Ong's leaving. "Who will I run to" by Kiley Dean.

LOL, GTG. My younger sister wants to use the computer.

Will continue next time :)

Adelene ^^

PS
I'm so sorry to say that I may not be able to be online so often now that my school term have started and I have an important exam this year (O levels) Hope that you'll understand. I will try to post as often as I can

Happy new year

2010-01-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

I guess my reflections will be on paper =.=

Merry Christmas :D

2009-12-23T17:26:00.004+08:00

I know this is early but still, Merry Christmas!!!

I would like to thank Yi Hong and Viola for their Christmas gifts doumo arigato gozaimashita <3 Especially to TYH, she came to my house to pass it to me.

On Sat, I went to IMM with my mum and sisters =D I bought jigsaw puzzles of dogs and cats, super kawaii...

On Sun, I had my violin lesson. Have to perfect my vibrato. lol

On, Mon, I went to Chinatown with my mum and sisters and bought 2 new blouses and 4 hairbands =D But as my younger sis wasn't feeling well, we came home earlier then planned... I watched Doctor Who with my elder sis :D

Yesterday I went to Vivo City with my mum and sisters for shopping of new clothes :D I bought new dresses from Forever 21 and another shop after walking around Vivo for a long time :D. We walked in Vivo for half a day and yet nowhere near half of vivo... We also bought cookies, biscuits and candies from M&S :D We took bus 30 all the way home from Vivo~~

And I have to start catching up on my holiday homework!!! =X Plus practicing my violin

Adelene ^^

Random

2009-12-17T14:04:00.007+08:00

Ok, this is totally random. I took a few quizzes on Facebook just for fun and here are the results =D

1st: Which type of Music suits your personality?
The answer is classical =D

Your classy,and sweet. Your the girl/guy who is friends with everyone, but never popular.Your also never really ha...ted even though sometimes you mite think so.Your also smart,charming,quite, and most likely good looking. Sometimes you should try to think outside the box a little more or try to get more involved in things, you can also try encouraging others or try to brighten somebodies day.

I took it a 2nd time and it became: Country Music
Your different and like to be. Your also entertaining to be with, your unique and you like to be yourself . Your al...so popular,but in certain things or with different people not every one loves you, but they don't mind you. Try being your self to other people and show your uniqueness to the world.

So now, which is correct =D But I like the picture of the piano =D

2nd: Do people secretly hate you?
Answer: People like you
You aren't mean at all and actually care about other people. Your compassion will get you far in life.

3rd: What is your school grade?
Answer: A student
AWESOME JOB!! YOU ARE THE BEST!! You rock at this and all! Maybe I can hire you as a tutor, lol!

LOL. I did the 2nd and 3rd just for fun. But I like the 1st 1 =D

Adelene ^^ <33333 Music, Violin, Piano, SInging, anime and manga

Music

2009-12-16T20:28:00.003+08:00

"Your body is the harp of your soul
And it's yours to bring forth sweet music from it or confused sounds"

Why I love Music:
It is something I had within me from young. I loved music from the depth of my heart from young. Music was like my pastime, my fun. And I enjoyed it. I have been singing from young and performing on stage since young. My parents introduced Music to me from when I was very young, when i was a baby or toddler. Since then I have always loved Music until now. Music is my passion and inspiration... I have super strong feelings for Music. Music is like my best friend and companion... They are my words that I used to convey my thoughts and feelings. Music comforts me and have an ability to make me happy and relaxed... Maybe that's why I loved Music. Music means a lot to me. "Without Music, life is a mistake"

LOL this is copied from my own post in the vocal group blog, but it is true from the depths of my heart =D

Wahaha. I'm currently very active in Facebook, Crunchyroll and Animax Asia haha.

Got loads of stuff to do, and I need to get out of my comfort zone to complete it... Eg my hol HW =.= Oh yeah, can any one scan for me the eng hol assignment please? My eng tys is not with me.

Oh yeah, this is super random but I have finally learnt how to engage my nasal haha. lol. But still needs polishing up ~~~ I wanna my natural voice (lol, sound like spoilt brat)

My violin is steadily improving (according to my teacher). Hopefully I can be a professional violinist =D and a professional singer. Yup, that's my dream (from young for the singer part) =D

Adel^^

Body Worlds

2009-12-08T19:16:00.002+08:00

Haha, I'm planning to go with my cousins and sisters to Body World in Singapore Science Centre tomorrow.

Who's Going: Valerie, Owin, Kimberley, Catherine, Chun Mei, Chun Yun, My aunt and I

My Aunt is a member of something so we'll have 4 free admissions to the Body World.

Random~~

Mrs Ng our Biology teacher say that next year they'll be a subsidized trip to the Body Worlds. http://www.bodyworlds.com.sg/
Original Price
(SSC + BW)
Adult $21
Child (3-16 yrs) $13
(BW only)
Adult $20
Child $12

Adel ^^

Performances

2009-12-02T19:52:00.002+08:00

There are free performance that I plan to go to...

Plus, the Human Body exhibition in Singapore Science Centre. I plan to go with my sisters and cousins =D

Celebrate December in Esplanade

Esplanade Concourse
11 Dec 09, Fri	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm	Bec & Ros
13 Dec 09, Sun	5.15 – 5.45pm, 6.15 – 6.45pm, 7.15 – 7.45pm	Raffles Concert Singers
14 & 15 Dec 09, Mon & Tue	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm	Les Harpisters Ensemble
16 Dec 09, Wed	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm	Nanchiau High Choir
17 Dec 09, Thu	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm	Bec & Ros
18 Dec 09, Fri	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm	Dawn Fung
20 & 21 Dec 09, Sun & Mon	5.15 – 5.45pm, 6.15 – 6.45pm, 7.15 – 7.45pm (Sun) 7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm (Mon)	MOB – Asian Xmas
22 Dec 09, Tue	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm (Mon)	MOB – Asian Bellz
23 Dec 09, Wed	7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm (Mon)	Victoria Chorale
24 Dec 09, Thu	6.15 – 6.45pm, 7.15 – 7.45pm; 8.15 – 8.45pm	Raffles Concert Singers
25 Dec 09, Fri	5.15 – 5.45pm, 6.15 – 6.45pm, 7.15 – 7.45pm	Victoria Chorale
26 & 27 Dec 09, Sat & Sun	5.15 – 5.45pm, 6.15 – 6.45pm, 7.15 – 7.45pm	Fritz Quartet
28 & 29 Dec 09, Mon & Tue		Weeraphong Thaweesak: The Glass Harpist
30 & 31 Dec 09, Wed & Thu	6.45 – 7.15pm, 8 – 8.30pm, 9.15 – 9.45pm	"Inspirational Home" Letters Home

Esplanade Outdoor Theatre
11 Dec 09, Fri	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm, 10 – 10.45pm	Babes Conde and friends
12 Dec 09, Sat	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm, 10 – 10.45pm	Babes Conde and friends Psalmideo Babes Conde and friends
13 Dec 09, Sun	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Psalmideo Babes Conde and friends
14 Dec 09, Mon	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Choir of the Korean Church in Singapore
15 & 16 Dec 09, Tue & Wed	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	After 6
17 Dec 09, Thu	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Seraphim Choir Group
18 Dec 09, Fri	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm, 10 – 10.45pm	Capriccio
19 Dec 09, Sat	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm, 10 – 10.45pm	NUS Jazz Band
20 Dec 09, Sun	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Matthew & the Mandarins
21 Dec 09, Mon	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Capriccio
22 & 23 Dec 09, Tue & Wed	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Alo Brasil
24 Dec 09, Thu	8.45 – 9.30pm, 10 – 10.45pm	The Vocal Consort
26 Dec 09, Sun	7.30 - 8.15pm 8.45 - 9.30pm 10 - 10.45pm	Bless Freaky Z Bless
27 Dec 09, Sun	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Temen AWI Angklung Orchestra
29 Dec 09, Tue	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Lush Pop Orchestra
30 Dec 09, Wed	7.30 – 8.15pm, 8.45 – 9.30pm	Phil Youths
31 Dec 09, Thu	7 – 7.45pm	53A
	8.15 – 9pm	Ngak & Clement
	9.30 – 10.15pm	Daphne
	10.45 – 11.50pm	Jack & Rai
	11.50pm – 12.10am	Countdown
1 Jan 10, Fri	12.10 – 1am	Ngak & Clement

And the National Piano and Violin competition
Schedule At A Glance*

Date	Event	Venue
5 – 11 Dec	Piano Competition	Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music Concert Hall
8 – 11 Dec	Violin Competition	Esplanade Recital Studio
12 Dec	Piano Masterclasses Violin Masterclasses	Young Musicians’ Society
13 Dec	Violin Finals (Artist Category) Piano Finals (Artist Category) Prize Presentation Ceremony	Victoria Concert Hall

I'll choose some to go to =D

I'll also be going to The Inaugural Choral Elite concert by Victoria Consort, Victoria Chorale and VJC Choir

Date: 30 DECEMBER 2009

Time: 7.30pm - 9.10pm (100mins)

Venue: Esplanade

My Week =)

2009-11-20T19:14:00.002+08:00

On Tues, I went to BJP Grace Sanctuary for the vocal workshop with Jerrold. Viola went first as she had to leave early for dental appointment. At first Yi Hong and I are not used to him, so we kept laughing and went slightly off and Yi Hong went side-tracking. But it was a great fun. In the end after much chatting, we got used to him. He gave 3 pointers. If you want people to listen to you: 1)Must be in tune 2) good tone 3)Good pronunciation. Hethen analysed our voice and said my high notes are crystal clear but I need to work on mid and low...

On Wed, I had choir... After choir, I talked to Miss Goh about the training on tues. After that, I rushed home, gobbled up my hokkien mee as I have to bring Kimberley to my Pri Sch to collect report book. I chatted with Mrs Kristina, Miss Jerica Lim, Miss Bala, Mrs Tong and Mrs Nai <333 I really missed my Primary School teachers. Mrs Nai talked to me about my subject combi, JCs, etc and invited me to go back to help out with the choir. I agreed and she'll sms me the details

On Thurs was the vocal training. Jerrold warmed me up from mid-high to high high then to mid... He said he finally heard my mid and said my mid was the clearest of all the Sopranos he heard yay!!!
LOL

Today stayed at home used com

GTG, will elab on next post if I rmb

Adelene ^^

Choir

2009-11-16T19:30:00.002+08:00

For today's choir, I'm the only sec 3 present lol

Anyway, we started off with warm up and Miss Goh taught a new technique to fake maturity... Hui Zhen sounds darker then me :X

We did 3 malay song, kimi wo no sete, hotaru koi and gather ye rose, I think...

After Choir I talk to Miss Goh cause the method she taught, i used and my throat hurt...

Miss Goh actually said my singing voice is not my natural singing voice. So my natural voice type she can't tell cause she never heard me use it even once =X But the voice I use now is a light lyrical or a descant. But 1 thing she can be sure about is that I'm a soprano. And the voice I'm using to sing now, can't do solo as I can't really control or express with... I can only do solo when I managed to get back my natural voice which had been lost for ages due to excessive drilling for choir :( Before I found my natural voice, I mustn't project as the voice I'm using now restricted me and I can't go any louder or softer... And this voice I'm using now don't really have any pieces to select from, therefore, I must get back my natural voice!!! This voice I'm using is only for choral! And it's restricting me!! I wanna find my natural singing voice!!!

But Miss Goh suggest that I can try Celtic music or descant parts or the songs she suggest for the My Show 2009 or a song for coloratura sop for my current "fake" voice for preparing 2 songs for the vocal workshop...

In conclusion,
My current:
~Can't project or not stable
~Difficult to control
~Can't express feelings
~Can't do solo
~Restricting in ranges of songs
~Descant or light lyrical sound
~Choral
My natural:
~Solo!!!
~Won't restrict
~Can be expressive
~Must get use to it
~Must explore from my speaking voice (?? lol)
~More variety of songs I can use
~Must re-train...
~Sounds complicated to convert
~Discard what I'm used to
~Start from nasal (*snort*)
~Center of head, voice bend, not so straight (???)
~I, myself even forgotten and don't even know how does it sound like

Therefore, I must find my natural singing voice!!!

And I was experimenting with my voice earlier this evening. I used nasal combine with head voice at half head thingy (I think), and it sounds more stable then my fake voice plus it's slightly darker and my mid range plus high more solid (still struggling at low)... Is it my natural voice???

Anyway, I'm still a sop~~~ but wanna know what type~~~

Anyway, must learn not to get distracted easily~~~ esp by Sanvanis's voice (cause so dif, confusing)

Going to vocal workshop tomorrow, Miss Goh also encouraged us to go... :)

Adelene ^^

Violin & Singing &Hol

2009-11-15T16:30:00.004+08:00

Hi people...

Academic program is finally over ^^

I created a vocal group but we haven't really practiced together yet =)
Blog: http://the-vocal-group.blogspot.com/

Tomorrow, there's choir and I can turn up =) cause I don't have any subjects I need to retest haha =) I passed all with flying colors but flying not as high as I want it to be...

Missed Choir and they learn new songs, made me envy them =) Cause the songs sounds nice. But the song shalom something got clarinet part but due to the fact Wai Chi don't really want to do it, so I have to play on my violin. I spoke to my violin teacher and she said she'll teach me =) Yi Hong say Sop 1 super soft w/o Abi and I (I'm loud only at high notes cause of my voice type lol), juniors must JY!!!

My violin lesson today was kinda more relaxed :) but teacher said I improved (yay) and My sound on a $185 violin sounds nicer then the girl before me with a $1000+++ violin =)

My ah ma's birthday is coming and we're celebrating it today as a 1 big family instead on the actual 19th nov... Everyone's coming over =)

And next tue, wed and thur I going to have vocal workshop and I have to prepare at least 2 songs, gotta find Miss Goh to see what songs suitable for my voice type.. Mon and Wed, CHOIR!!!

Adelene ^^ loving violin, singing and music

PS: Go see this video of WT: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEIvlihb2Ms&fmt=22
Highly recommended lol

Hols

2009-11-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

Gokigenyou~

Haha, report book's out!!! Guess what??? I did kinda well (YAY =D) But not up to my expectations (emo 1 corner ;( )... 7th in class, 18th in level =) But in numerical wise, No where near my target (shimata!!!!)

Anyway, last Friday, Viola, Hui Hui, Yi Hong and I performed in the "My Show 2009" in the canteen. Can say it's sorta the start of the vocal group (HELLO? We need a change of name :) ) Eh, Viola, Hui Hui and Yi Hong sang the verses, I did the chorus, except the last one where we sang together and last note, it's a split :). We sang "Wishing you were somehow here again" The audiences cheers only when I go high (... LOL???) And Jin Jing asked us to do another song, so we sang "impromptu" song (according to Hui Hui) "Angel of Music". I sang Cristine's part, Viola and Hui Hui sang Meg and Yi Hong sang the phantom (I sabo 1 =D) But I still think our "Wishing you were somehow here again was better" Thank you Solai and Stella for the support (Stella came halfway and missed out our front, she loved the 1st song ^^) It was certainly a great experience, and I felt a sense of accomplishment and it's fun!!! I'm so doing it again with them =D

Next performance up, our vocal group (consists of Yi Hong, Yi Fen, Celina, Agnes, Viola, Hui Hui, Stella, Asher, Jin Han and I) kinda thinking (ok, Viola and I decided on our own, ps) performing as CIP... Kinda not planning much except looking for songs =D

Having great fun with my violin... <33333 my Violin ^^ Convey the message of the song!!! (yups, from Miss Goh =D)

And during 20th to 26th OCt, I went to Republic Poly with Stella, Hui Hui and Germaine for electice dunnoe what... But it's enrichment (3D animation and modelling). Our lecturer was Kenneth and he was kinda proud of us, showing off us to his other students (jkjk) But, he owes us chocolates!!!

And 27th to 29th we had preparation for war games!!! My class won 2 prizes and had snacks as prizes, stuffed ourselves full haha...

27th got choir prac, it's fun =D learnt new songs =D but my section is still relying on me =.=

30th report book retrieval

2nd Nov to 13th Nov academic progamme.

Kinda thinking to go Esplanade library tomorrow =D

Signing off,
Adel Takara~~~

Reflections

2009-10-22T11:47:00.006+08:00

To people who are reading, sorry for the long break between each post especially Yukiki lol Yuki

Examinations are over, results returned...

However I'm feeling very angry and disappointed with myself. Even though I did better then my class average, I didn't achieve my goals for all subjects...

I also find my violin speed is very slow but my teacher said it's quite impressive to actually obtain a grade 5 in like around 1 year...

Is it because my expectations of myself is too high and I am currently drowning in my expectations?

However, I find that I actually can do so much better when I scan through my papers. I know my potential and limit. I can do much much more and better. I'm totally underscoring and not attaining my true potential and my own plus others' expectations!!!!

Number 1, I am lazy. Yes, I'm admitting to it. And regretting it. It's like I only started studying the day before the paper... And I went out with Stella, Hui Hui, Asher and Jin Han to study almost every weekday during exam period but end up enjoying myself joking... And I also didn't managed to write notes, I only did for Chemistry...

TO do better,
~I need to practise!!! Be it violin or studies
~Complete homework.
~Make notes early
~Be serious, hardworking
~Not sink into depression and insecurities.
~more determination and wanting to achieve my goals!!!

I would like to thank Jin Han ^^ I was quite upset yesterday and he specially called to cheer me up, Germaine and Stella for comforting me, Hui Hui for distracting me and Asher for keeping quiet...

I'm currently at Republic Poly for 3D Modelling and Animation course together with Hui Hui, Stella, Germaine and Asher. Jin Han, Viola, Solai and Wai Teng are at Ngee Ann Poly for microbiology, kinda missing them course they are always with me. We are at respective poly from 20th to 26th Oct 8.30 to 5pm.

Choir resumes next week. However I'm still wondering whether I'll be happier at Volleyball or Choir... But Choir's fun, however my section is too reliant on me..

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GERMAINE!!! Her birthday's yesterday, sorry... =(

I'm very thankful and glad that I have such great friends (Wai Teng, Viola, Solai, Stella, Hui Hui, Germaine, tyh) and "bro" (Jin Han) and family (esp my sisters, parents and KCM plus KCY)
I'll always treasure them loads!!! <3

Signing off Takara =)
Currently 15 and a half years!!! of 22102009

Music

2009-06-03T14:47:00.004+08:00

Gokigenyou minna-san!!!

Last night, before I sleep, I heard a beautiful piano playing. It was beautiful and filled with emotion. It was very touching and a tear slipped down my cheeks subconsciously... It wrenches my heart and made me long for it. The ability to play as well as that person, and the longing to have a piano becomes stronger.
Yes, I certainly love music. It's practically my life... But I think I'm lucky for I have a chance to learn Violin under my teacher who is famous for Violin in China and have a master in it and the chance to learn vocal under choral instructor. For that, I greatly appreciate my chance. But I really wanna learn piano and vocal on top of violin...

I miss choir. It seems like ages since we last have a practice.

And also my A Cappella and string quartet...

Music had the ability to draw you in no matter where you are, it helps us express our feelings and convey our message. Music can be enjoyed by everyone and entertains people. It's good to keep practicing using the same music, to create an ideal sound.That's a very important element of playing music. Even if there's an ideal sound, it doesn't mean you can express it perfectly. There's many ways to interpret a piece of music, however, when you put many expressions to a steady music, you'll feel taken in. Performance must not be restricted or else how to express? A piece need not be played in a certain way. Different ways to express makes it interesting. Most importantly is to enjoy the music and have the passion... With passion and interest, it's enough. That's all that you need to experience Music

The warmth in my heart is proof that the flame is still glowing ever so brightly. However small that flame may be, that even a mere hurt could threaten to extinguish it, the fact that it's still burning is proof enough.

Seize the day
Do not grieve over the past, for it is gone.
Do not worry about the future, for it has yet to come.
As long as it is called today,
Live this day as it was your last,
And you will find this day
Worth living for

Some people see things as they are and ask "Why"
Others dream thing that never were and ask "Why not"
What your mind can conceive and believe, It Can Achieve

Holidays are here but with homework, take a break and a step back. Relax and you'll see the world in a different manner. Go back on track feeling refreshed then you can do your best

~Takara ^^

Birthday and SYF

2009-05-05T18:36:00.010+08:00

Konnichiwa minna-san

LOL, this is so late but, yeah

22nd April ~~My Big day
Thanks a lot to these people:
*My family <3>
*Wai Teng (Ah Ting) ^^
*Celina ^^
*Jing Woon
*Jin Han ^^
*Jin Jing
*Nicole (Nicky)
*Lian Xin
*Miss Goh ^^
*3-5'09
*Choir
*Ms Teoh
*Mr Wan
*Mr Luqman
*Grace
*Phobe
*Charlotte
*Yi Hong
For celebrating my birthday. Thank you very much, it meant a lot to me. I'm so sorry if I've missed out some... But thank you so much.
Choir on that day, did badly on the fri before. Thank you so much. (Sorry Jing Woon but) I have always wish that I'll have choir practice on my birthday. Mr Aidil came in!!! He conducted us for a part of white horses cause Miss Goh was at the side. He looked at me when come to Sop1 part. Super fun. Then Miss Goh take over. It was more interesting that day. Mr Aidil tenor 2. Hehe. I'm sorry, Miss Goh that the whole choir disappointed you. I cried. :X But anyways, after choir, went out with Miss Goh hehe. She talked to me lotsa stuff... This is one of my most memoriable birthday. Cheesecake with strawberry. Wahaha. Don't lose faith, Miss Goh!!! Oh yeah, Miss Goh told Sop 1 don't let someone hold the A5 and she looked at me. I'm always holding, where's the rest??? Then Sop1 hold, then she said, "Can the Sop2 and Alto support the crazy Sop1?" Then they came out. And super beautiful.

23 April~~Choir's big day~~SYF~~My 4th SYF
We went to AVA room straight after assembly. Did our hair, wear our costume and put lipstick. Miss Goh came in around 8.30am, super kirei!!! We did warm up and stuff, satisfied with the sound, so much improvement. I was super hungry and Miss Goh gave us break =D. Ate apple pie in front of her and Yi Hong ate a third... At around 10.15pm, we left the school to Victoria Concert Hall-VCH. Sat beside Miss Goh on the bus at first, but Nicky and Yi Yun saw a cockroach. Miss Goh swap place with them and I sat with Yi Hong who is in font of Miss Goh and Mr Goh. Slept on the bus... When we reach there, headed straight to the shelter, 2 other school were there and 1 of them practising under the hot sun. And we are the only pure SSA choir!!! Others got guys. Miss Tham and Ms Koh came when we were about to go up. Miss See To and Ms Teoh was with us. When we went outside the Victoria terrace Miss Goh gave us a note I think it's an A if I never remember wrongly. We hum it then Miss Goh cut us off cause she said we sound like mosquittos HAHA. Then went in and did what we planned and got chased out after 10min. Sheash, what's the hurry. LOL. Then went outside the VCH and High Hsing Catholic inside. We sat on the floor, listened to them. No offense to those who read. Their Sop 1 out of tune, white horses tempo wrong, too soft. We went in after them. I felt super relaxed on stage and indulged in the Music really. We conveyed and delivered the Music and enjoyed. It was one of our best performance, everyone gave their best, our sound was nice and filled the hall. The audience was impressed and started to cheer even though it was not alllowed, when we finished, the audience cheered , clap, scream and shout. Everyone hugged everyone and some even cried. It was superb, really. Choir, we are a team and we're ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. Mr Goh told me that when on stage, he nervous until he can't see the scores :X We left and bus came around 12.10pm, Miss Goh, Ms Teoh, Mr Goh and Miss Goh's youngest bro and her mother. We went back to school and changed. Had debrief. Then Jing Woon, Farah and Abigail ^^ ask me to go with them to english at 2pm. LOL. Then just go. Ms Phua let us out super late at 2.30pm. Her lesson suppose to end at 2.15pm. Then I took a cab to VCH. $14+ loh. Lucky the uncle see I student and he know I have to pay myself, erase off ERP charges. Phew. Went in VCH. Missed the TBB choir, sucks!!! Found Miss Goh, her mother and Ms Teoh. While waiting for the release of the results, Miss Goh and I went to talk to Mr Aidil. He looked at me and said, "I know you, Sop1 right? From the audience point of view, you're very relaxed and enjoying yourself on stage. Totally indulging and immersed in the music. You made the audience notice you. Can see that you are very passionate about choir, and feel comfortable on stage, like you belong there" Miss Goh told him,"Yeah, she's one of the very passionate one and crazy over choir" Then they discussed about the costume =X Mr Aidil only slept for 2 hours the night before. Results announced at around 4pm and there was a talk back session with the judges. Miss Goh say 2 years ago, Mr Nelson Kwei asked a lot of questions but this year no one asked. After Miss Goh calmed down and I smsed the majority of the choir, we went to eat KFC. Miss Goh and her mum treated me. Thanks so much... =D Talked to them all the way... Took MRT

"

Post Choir Syf '09

Friday, April 24, 2009@5:20 AM

Choir girls,

Everyone's done our very best and that matters most.
Those time I spent with everyone will never be forgotten. ;D
Yes, the colour of the award aint to everyone's liking,
but at the end of the day, its the team sprit, those happy times during many hours of practices that matters, isn't it?
Everyone enjoyed ourselves, we've put up our best performance.
We can't change the results, but we know that we have done our very best.

Don't dwell on the results, don't think too much.
After today, its the battle for those exams!
Let's do our best in our studies, shall we? (:

The curtains are closed and Cinderella goes back to reality.
We should, too.

-Stephanie, with much loves. "

Thanks, steph for saying what i feel too. Thank you so much. What matters most is the journey we took together, the joy, sadness and sweat we put in together. Don't cry cause it's over, smile cause it happened and we had a chance to show to the other school and other conductors/instructors and TIC (teacher in charge)

JY for MYE ok. Don't bother what others say cause only we ourselves know how far we had progress...

Last Sat,
My mum brought us to eat breakfast at West Coast and she parked her car at Miss Goh's estate XP and went opposite to eat

Ok Minna, JY for MYE!!!! I'll post asap

I MISS CHOIR!!!

March hols

2009-03-21T12:43:00.003+08:00

I'm so sorry that it's completely dead so I'm trying to revive it... ~~ 50th post~~

A week ago from now, I was at Republic Poly for My Music My Song My Story. It's very fun. LOL. Yi Hong and I was with Miss Goh and Mr Goh most of the time. LOL they two together very photogenic I tell you. I kinda wanna get aa picture of them both but I was too engrossed in the piano and my phone keep MIA. Haha. Miss Goh arrived at 1 pm while Mr Goh came at 2pm. A lot of stuff happened and I totally enjoyed myself. There was around 2 rehearsal before the actual performance. Miss Goh lose her voice and later found out is infection of vocal cords =(. Mr goh's playing improved. He's more expressive now. Kudos. During the perfomance, they turn the piano cause they say the back isn't attractive =.= then, they piano project its sound towards us and dandansoy I was just next to it. Got blasted by it. Then dandansoy, Miss Goh say that the A5 by Soprano 1 everyone sang but cut off before she cut us off and she heard only me hanging on... Kelly have fever! Then fire was ok. haha.

We had re-audition on Tues due to what happened. Which totally sucks as I had phlegm blocked my voice and my mid-range sounds wierd. I did fire first. Miss goh said that my fire in the scary part, "I am fire you know me for my endless moving. For my endless moving burning destroying hunger" That is the part the choir must obtain perfect harmonics. She say I'm wierd cause my 2nd for my is off but everything is perfect pitch lol? But she passed me. Then for dandansoy, she say I overpush my low and mid range therefore it becomes unstable there. So she told me she purposely fail me during lunch. And also she fail me cause kinda want my section to stop depending on me for the high notes and do it themselves. And she say my speaking if I use to sing, it's the correct technique to stabilise my low and mid. I had lunch with her and chatted from after choir 1pm to around 6.15 or so... But I had fun. She told me lot's of stuff about the choir too, she even sang to me her grade 8 test peice for vocal in an octave lower..

On thurs, she had another round of audi for those who didn't come. Kelly then ask me to practise solo. Cause sop1 vey little people. I wasn't nervous about fire. But when come to dandansoy, I was slightly nervous but not as bad as tues. She didn't want to re-assess me until next week. She say I'm very sensitive to notes and know when myself and the rest is out of tune. She told me to practise more myself. Had lunch with her and Yi Hong. Then we walk her to JWSS where she'll be their pianist. Yi Hong and I then went to the MPH at my estate there to practise, acoustic good =D until around 5++. I sorta get my nasal. .:. I know back, head tone and nasal. Ta dah

Fri i went to my mum's company event.

Have to choing HW cause I was sick and slept most of the time!!!

Akemashite Omedetou

2008-12-30T10:18:00.003+08:00

Akemashite Omedetou Minna!!!

School's starting. Kinda good and bad. Yosh!!! Must gambatte.

Miss Goh gonna teach sec1 sing school song!!! OMG I wanna help... :'( Like so fun!!! ... Too high... Choir prac 1.30 to 3.30pm. Please show up, people.

My upper sec uniform like., one word, BIG!!! Look wierd in it

But I'm gonna enjoy myself while working hard for choir. HAHA!!! Miss Goh rocks.

I really want Ms Ng to teach us Chinese next year and the year before. Kelly say 3-5 going 3-4 for CL if no HCL. So that means I same chinese class with my bro... You better do hw...

White horses, dandansoy and fire!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for randomness.

well, AKEMASHITE OMEDETOU and all the best for the next year!!! Gambatte!!!

Takara signing off~
WT!!!!

Merry Christmas, Simply must post

2008-12-27T09:30:00.004+08:00

Gokigenyou minna. This is absolutely must post.

This happened on Christmas itself so kinda no time to post.

25/12/08

I left the house with my elder sis at around 4.30pm. We reached JP and went to basement for Harris. After that we took the MRT to City Hall. Walked through City Link Mall to go to Esplanade.

Reached there at 5.45pm like that. Then we sat down at the concourse, there's seats =.=. and Waited then the Nan Hua High Harp Ensemble walked in with their harps. Then they played. Very nice... They got 4 sections =D They are a few songs they got soloist. But it was so nice. Even my elder sis started liking harp. harhar. It ended at 6.30pm. Half hour only *sobs*

Then we walked around trying to find the outdoor theatre. We bought snacks =D candy floss, sweet corn, potato ring and green tea. We were very early, so we got to choose our seats. Fourth row from the front, exactly in the middle. We sat around doing weird stuff as we waited.

The sunset

This was on the ceiling

The stage

City Light

Then, at 7.30pm, the Korean Youth Team was on!!! They are a choir!!! They sang very nicely and did many songs. They also had solo parts. It's good. I totally love it!!! They even sang jingle bells in KOREAN.

I'm so sorry I didn't took much pic. Cause my elder sis was the one with the 8.0 Mega Pix digital camera. I used my 2.0 Mega Pix handphone and took the pictures. And I was totally into the concert so yeah., not much pictures. You know when it was almost ending, a guy from the esplanade came over and told us no flash allowed when a lot more peoiple was using. TOTALLY RUIN THE CONCERT. But anyways, I totally love it. They rock. If they are holding another concert, I'm totally going. It ended at 8.15pm *sobs*

These 2 shows/concert totally worth my time.

City Lights

On the way back, of course, dropped by HMV!!! My elder sis bought black symphony by within temptation. The only one there.

26/12/08
Went to collect my uniform and buy my remaining books that can't be bought in Popular.

School Street

I took while waiting for the bus. Total random.

My Block

Watched the Black Symphony Concert, back stage report and countdown. Very nice =D 7th Feb is totally the day remembering.

Takara signing off... =D
Kioko, keiko.

PS: Embed a new playlist. It is within temptation. My elder sis took 8 hours to do this. She went through searching imeem to compile this playlist. Better appreciate it. =D They rock!!!

PS2:

Within Temptation is a Dutch metal band. The band was founded in 1996 by vocalist Sharon den Adel and guitarist Robert Westerholt. Their music is variously described as symphonic metal, as well as gothic metal, although in an interview, Den Adel said they fell into a symphonic rock genre with various influences

Directly after the release of their first album Enter, the band became prominent in the underground scene. It would however take until 2001, when they became known by the general public, with the single "Ice Queen" from the album Mother Earth, which reached #2 on the charts. Since then, the band won the Conamus Exportprijs five years in a row. Their next album The Silent Force debuted at #1 on the Dutch charts. Their latest album, The Heart of Everything, also debuted at #1.

Current line-up

Within Temptation in 2008 on Bevrijdingsfestival

Sharon den Adel - Vocals (1996-present)
Robert Westerholt - Guitar, Vocals (1996-present)
Ruud Adrianus Jolie - Guitar (2001-present)
Jeroen van Veen - Bass (1996-present)
Martijn Spierenburg - Keyboards (2001-present)
Stephen van Haestregt - Drums (2002-present)

Former members

Ivar de Graaf – Drums (1996-1998, 1999-2001)
Martijn Westerholt – Keyboards (1996-2001)
Michiel Papenhove – Guitar (1996-2001)
Jelle Bakker – Guitar (2001)
Ciro Palma – Drums (1998-1999)
Dennis Leeflang – Drums (1996)
Richard Willemse – Drums (1996)

Merry Christmas

2008-12-22T14:41:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas, minna. Christmas is coming. =D

Signalling the season for giving and joy..

I've got a christmas present from ah sim. She gave each of us a wallet from the wallet shop. Thanks soo much =D

Signals school reopenin. Haha. Kinda good and bad. =D Bad cause my holiday homework not completed yet :X (What are you doing here then) I kinda looking forward. And there may be choir prac on the first day of school. I'm really looking forward to it haha cause I love and enjoy choir. I kinda don't really like orientation cause kinda boring. And I can't use the computer that often... But will try my best.

I gotta master vibrato and get well soon... Haha. Gambatte.

Wishing everyone a very happy merry christmas.

Phlegm blocking my voice =(

These few days I have been either sleeping or reading fruit basket cause the medication wll make me sleep. Haha. Have I ever mention, I love fruit basket!!!

Cheers
Takara Signing off =D
Take care minna
You know, I kinda aiming to be the president of choir. But I don't mind sectional leader. Shh, senpai ima nani sho.

Last Choir Prac of 2008

2008-12-19T18:57:00.002+08:00

Omg!!! I think I falling sick. Miss Goh is spot on...

Miss Goh is very nice, sweet, adorable, caring, kind, humorous, etc (The list can go on and on) if you know her. Heheh. I totally enjoys her lesson and time spent with her=D

Yesterday was the last choir prac of this year =( We started off with warm up at the hall. Cause Miss Goh wants us to experience different acoustics. Then suddenly around 11++ I nearly fainted. It's like I can't see anything then I saw like blackness and can't stand straight... Then after I sat down and closed my eyes a while, better le. I sang along sitting down for Hine Ma Tov. Then when fire I stood up and sang together. Kinda fun. We also did hear the merry bells ringing and another. It was very fun =D Then after that, at 12.15 we finished. And went back to panel room. We were doing the then, ending of fire when Miss Seeto came in and talk to Miss Goh a while then Yi Hong and I went to the washroom and when we came out, Miss Seeto was talking to Miss Goh outside the washroom. I think she saw us going.

Then after that, we walked off. Miss Seeto even told us to enjoy our meal, kinda sweet =D. Then Mak Jing Wen came along to. So Miss Goh (I invited her for lunch with us the night before =D), Yi Hong (Urm, lunch always together), Jing Wen (Same) and I decided to go to Taman Jurong Food an Market Centre in the end. On the way, Miss Goh asked me what I ate for breakfast and she was shocked that I never ate carbo with protein. She's so sweet and concerned for us, she gave me a lecture. =D then we passed by Miss Cheng waiting for the bus and I joked, "My instructor giving me another home econ lesson" Then they laughed and said "Must eat properly". Haha. Then we chat all the way. Haha and Miss Goh didn't wanna wait for another traffic light so we ran across while the green man was blinking. It was very nice chatting with her.

Then when we reached there and found a seat, we saw Sanvanis, Septimo and Evelyn was at level 3 while we were at 2. Then we moved seats cause it was kinda too hot. Yi Hong and Jing Wen ate Wanton noodles, then I bought Ipoh hor fun then Yi Hong was like, hey I want that were you buy. Urm, same store = haha. Then Miss Goh came back with rice. She said that she normally don't eat so much if no choir prac. She even said that instructor kinda tiring cause you have to think ahead, what to do next and listen and pay attention to the current. So need a lot of energy. She said that what we ate was not enough :X haha. Then we 3 went to buy sugar cane while Miss Goh bought Soy bean milk without sugar and coffee. While we were drinking, Septimo they all came down and join us. We walked back to school chatting and laughing.

Then, we did White Horses and DanDanSoy. Then my voice got something wrong. Miss Goh made all the Sops sing solo for checking. When she heard me he was so shocked (Sorry Miss Goh) and asked me how come my voice become like that. Well I got inflammation!!! I feel so sorry =X

After choir, I sat bus with them, as usual. Before crossing the road, she asked me why. I didn't get enough sleep she was like no wonder. We chat and talked about our future school and career path. She gave some valuable advice, I will always remember them in my heart haha. We alighted at clementi, left Yi Hong on the bus. Then I waited with Miss Goh for her bus, we talked and she told me that I may be catching the flu bug. She gave me a lot more advices and tips too. =D haha she told me before that she didn't really pay attention to me cause I quite ok and stable when in proper condition. I was so happy. We walked to lakeside together on Mon =D She told me to rest well, so sweet. =D Thank you so much. I really enjoy the time I spent with Miss Goh. =D I think she's one of the best instructor I ever had (Sorry Miss Lim and Miss Loh), she does not treat us as students and teachers strictly and she cares for us and treats us specially then other choir whom she is their pianist. She say that she treats us the most special cause we were her 1 and only choir she is instructing. She told me a lot of things, I am obliged not to disclose, thanks so much for trusting me. I think I spent quite a lot of time with her and I enjoy totally and will never ever regret =D

***Important, Miss Goh says that she is most probably using these songs for SYF'09
~White Horses~Set Piece
~Dandansoy~Can showcase our techniques
~Fire~Easy to express.

Confession time:
I didn't slept well cause I was up doing the Christmas notes for the whole choir until 1am. Miss Goh's and Yi Hong's card was did earlier in the day with Jolene's, Abigail's and Kelly's.
And I was having throat discomfort the day before :X

Random?

2008-12-10T18:14:00.002+08:00

Konnichiwa minna. OMG!!! Today I can finally print out the Japanese names. I have to gambatte at Japanese too :X

You have I have a new kakak. Her name is Lili. She have an interest in Japanese too =D she can speak English, Malay (DUH), Chinese, Hokkien. Cool?

I copied some notes on Japanese from Learn Japanese.
But I did not managed to copy all. Haha. So I guess I have to continue tomorrow. =D

I also have to work on my hol hw, my violin, choir, jap, anime, manga. Haha. So much to do, so little time. =D

I watched Bleach 198 today!!! Byakuya nii-sama rocks!!!

Ah well, ja sorosoro!! ja-ne

Takara signing off :X
waratte minna, Keiko, Kioko.

PS: Jolene promise to lend me her notes (Jap)!!!

9th Dec HI

2008-12-09T20:04:00.004+08:00

Gonbawa minna. Haha, I seem to have been addicted to blogging haha. I edited my links. And is you wanna be linked, tag (duh) haha.

I watched Bleach until 197 haha. Come on 198. I have to chiong other anime too +.+ Like Vampire Knight, Shugo Chara. And I wanna watch La Corda d'Oro Secondo Passo <3... heheh =D

And I gotta prac my violin!!! And choir!!! OMG. Especially my violin. And chiong my HW... So many things, so little time... Anyway, gambatte XD

Still reading Fruit Basket heheh. And Yi Hong gonna lend me her manga. Heheh.

Wanna print some Japanese names out but site experiencing difficulties, haizz.. Recently I have been searching and printing Japanese names out. But limited. My ink finishing but my mum still haven't buy :X

I gonna miss ya, 2-1'08, we had been such a lively and united bunch. Keep in touch!!!

To Jolene and Septimo, even if you had been transfered to Sop2, we will always remember and miss ya. Jia you in there and be happy.

Yi hong, you gotta buck up. And doumo arigato gozaimashita!!!

Choir Prac on 12th dec, Fri, 9.30-12.30pm. Hope to have fun. All of us, buck up and work towards a gold or gold with honors heheh. Especially Sop2 and Altos, you are the main basic, Sop1 is the behind curtain :X

Got pretty nice videos on Pachelbel Canon. It's nice, do listen and listen to my new playlists got 5. Those are from La Corda d'Oro. It's uber nice <3 at My Music there below. Enjoy!!!

I had been rather random and thanks for enduring.

GTG. =P or I'm in deep trouble.

Sole ja

Takara signing off.
waratte minna, Keiko and Kioko hehe =D

Jigoku Shoujo
My name is Enma Ai. This is for you. If you truly wish to eliminate the person tormenting you, you must untie the red string. If you untie the red string, you will enter an official contract with me, the person you wish to eliminate will immediately be taken to hell. However when your body dies, your soul will be taken to hell. Of course that is only after you die. The rest is up to you to decide.

Hii.

2008-12-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

Konnichiwa minna. Or should I say gonbawa.

Things don't always go your way I must say. Today the com keep lagging and even my microsoft works wanna go on Hari Raya Haji holiday. So it kinda sucks. I wanna print out something so I guess it hafta wait.

You know, I'm re-reading the entire Fruit Basket by Natsuki Takaya. It's very nice and I found a lot of meaningful sentences/phrase.

The sentences are
-The word men in kanji or chinese 人 can only be derived from having each other's support (Ayame)
-One doesn't become strong overnight and nothing has really change. Our bodies still tremble with fear. However, we must face those challenges head on! What is most important is keeping our hearts alive and to keep moving (Apply to Kisa and Yuki)
-One day, we will need to face that part of ourselves which we hate. Do your best, even if you have to shed countless tears to do it, one day it will pay off (Apply to Yuki and Kisa)
-In treasuring someone, one may experience sadness and loniless. But then again, it can also bring one immense joy (Hatsuharu)
-One might be more prone to exploding when they try to suppress their feelings. (Apply to Kagura)
-As long as we remain together, you said the words I needed to hear the most, all that fear and uncertainty will fade far far away (Kyo)
-Lock the emotions in the deepest recesses of my heart and maybe someday, I'll be strong enough to face the,. Someday I'll be calm enough to unlock those emotions trapped inside me (Yuki)
-There's nothing wrong in letting yourself go (Tohru to Yuki)
-There are times when I wish I could escape from all of this. But we're all fighting our own battles. (Tohru?)
-When they quarrel, it means that they're acknowledging each others presence and they're really trying to understand each other (Ayame's assistant)
-We must not give up easily. After all, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step! With perserverance, nothing is impossible!
-To understand a person you have got to accept that person for who he/she is (Tohru)
-You reject all that is beautiful yet when you're at your weakest moment it is only then you start to appreciate things of beauty. Pain requires warmth to see in the darkness require light. Both are equally important. Both reap their own rewards (Kazuma)
-So even if you should stumble or mess up in life, it'll work out. And you should tell yourself that it'll not be in vain, you'll come out of this as a stronger and better person (Kyoko)
-Wilfulness is something that never changes with age. Exaggerated wikfulness has its limits too (kyoko)
-Without pain and sorrow, one would not understand. Sometimes one has to experience real hardship to know one's true feelings. Only when one hit life's rock-bottom can one truly comprehend that kind of emotion. (kyoko)
-What does snow turns into when it melts? Spring (kana)
-Even if there isn't now, someday, hope will come calling. Just like no matter how hard you try to prevent it, or how many times you try to snuff it out, despair will keep rearing its ugly head. But along the same vein, hope will always be there, no doubt. (Kazuma)
-Just like how rejection exists in this world, there will be acceptance from another (Kyo)
-Simple words much as they can hurt us, can save us just as easily. (Kyo)
-Create beautiful memory as an ending (Yuki)
-It is the spirit of others that makes up mine. (tohru)

Readers Digest
Happiness doesn't depend on outward conditions. It depends on inner conditions. It isn't what you have or who you are or where you are or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about it.

Negi
Hold the world in your left hand and place yourself in your right. Become one with the world. You are but a window to the world beyond.

GTG. Gomen ne.
Takara signing off, Kioko

Jigoku Shoujo, Enma Ai:
pitiful shadow clothed in darkness
Thy actions caused man pain and sufferings.
Thy hollow soul drowns in thy sins
Do you wish to see what death is like.

New Blogskin

2008-12-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

Better appreciate what's in front of your eyes now, minna. Cause I took 6 hours to perfect this =.= ;_;. Haha. Mainly cause I ALWAYS use the navigation one. You know the one where you click and have pages =D well, I decided to try something new today. I always have the problem of choosing my own blogskin. =D Cause I'm spoilt for choice. So many kawaii and kirei one... Haiizz. But I'm glad that I manage to complete it =D in the end. Cheers!!!

Haii haii! This is La Corda d'Oro or Kin'iro no Corda 金色のコルダ Kin'iro no Koruda!!! It literally means The Golden String! Primo passo is first aired on 1st October 2006. Secondo passo is coming out on March 2009!!! Can't wait!!! Fro those who don't know, it's a shoujo anime with lot's of music.
Plot Summary: Kahoko Hino is a student at a Seisou Academy, one with an ordinary life. One day, Lili - the mischievous musical fairy who had blessed the original founder of the school - finds Kahoko running late to class. Delighted that she is able to see her, Lili grants Kahoko a magical violin, and a place in the school's annual musical competition, which many students in the music department vie to partake in. Kahoko refuses, only to be pressed on by the fairy, who constantly nags her until she finally gives way to his pleads. She reluctantly accepts the instrument. As she practices her pieces, Kahoko is amazed that she can play any piece on the violin as long as she knows the tune and plays it with her heart.
These are the songs they played in the selection:

Opening Theme - "Brand New Breeze" by Kanon
Ending Theme - "Crescendo" by Stella Quintet (consisting of the voice actors of the 5 male protagonists)

Music Played On The First Selection

Theme: Opening Up

Kahoko: Tristesse (Étude Opus 10 No.3) by Frédéric Chopin
Kazuki: Unter dem Doppeladler (Under The Double Eagle) by Josef Franz Wagner
Keiichi: Cello Concerto No. 9 in B Flat Major (G.482) by Luigi Boccherini
Azuma: Morning Mood by Edvard Hagerup Grieg
Shouko: Romance in G Major by Johann Baptist Joseph Maximilian Reger
Len: Polonaise Brillante No. 1 in D Major (for violin and orchestra - Opus 4) by Henryk Wieniawski

Music Played On The Second Selection

Theme: Something to Believe In

Kahoko: Canon in D Major by Johann Pachelbel (Anime) Liebesfreud (Joy of Love) by Fritz Kreisler (Manga)
Ryotaro: Fantasie-Impromptu by Frédéric Chopin
Kazuki: Auf Flügen des Gesanges (On Wings of Song) by Jakob Ludwig Felix Mendelssohn Bartholdy
Keiichi: Le Cygne by Charles Camille Saint-Saëns
Azuma: Thais Meditation by Jules Massenet
Shouko: Romance by Charles Camille Saint-Saëns
Len: Chaconne in G Minor by Tomaso Antonio Vitali

Music Played On The Third Selection

Theme: Irreplaceable Parts

Kahoko: Mélodie by Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky (anime) Après un rêve by Gabriel Fauré (Manga)
Ryotaro: The Revolutionary Étude by Frédéric Chopin
Kazuki: Serenade by Franz Schubert
Keiichi: Sicilienne by Gabriel Fauré
Azuma: Partita in A Minor by Johann Sebastian Bach
Shouko: Three Romances No. 2 by Robert Schumann
Len: Tzigane by Maurice Ravel

Music Played On The Final Selection

Theme: Irreplacable item(Manga); Setting Free(Anime)

Kahoko: Ave Maria by Schubert
Ryotaro: La Campanella by Franz Liszt
Kazuki: Jupiter from the Planets Suite by Gustav Holst
Keiichi: Prelude from Suites for Solo Cello No. 1 by Johann Sebastian Bach
Azuma: Vocalise by Sergei Vasilyevich Rachmaninov
Shouko: Clarinet Polka by K. Namyslowski
Len: Caprice No. 24 by Niccolò Paganini

Music Played On The Special Episode - Episode 26

Kahoko: Opus 12 Salut d'Amour by E. Elgar (accompanied by Shouko)
Ryotaro: S.541 Liebesträume (Dreams of Love) No. 3 in A Flat Major by Franz Liszt
Kazuki and Kahoko: Gavotte in D Major by F.J Gossec
Keiichi: Prelude from Suites for Solo Cello No. 1 by Johann Sebastian Bach
Azuma: Notturno d'Amour (Serenade) by R. Drigo
Len: Opus 50, Romance No. 2 in F Major by Beethoven

It is very nice and is my favourite anime. It inspired me to learn violin. I love this show and strongly recomend!!!

I really wanna master violin!!! When I reach grade 8, I plan to join the SSO. =D And maybe take diploma.

My currently favourite game is Pet society. I have a pure white bunny there =D

Gomen ne, minna, but I GTG to do my younger sister's change of blogskins. She doesn't know how shh =D

Takara Signing off =D
Waratte minna, kioko
:3

2008-12-06T16:36:00.002+08:00

Konnichiwa minna san. Gomen, haven't been updating. But here it goes

~My class next year would be 3-5, learning triple pure science, double math, SS and elect geog, of course EL and CL.

~Mr Luqman will be performing (DANCE) on 28th December, 8pm at the NUS UCC theater. Tickets are priced at $10, $14 and $16. Those who are interested, kindly tell Mr Luqman at 92266514 or tell me. =D

~We have a new choir instructor who is Miss Goh. She has this uber nice voice. She's a true pure Soprano and has some training in Opera. She joined the choir at a young age of 7 and had a vocal training with a professional vocal instructor who is an Alto, she also joined a a capella group. She mastered piano and sight reading. She learnt Violin and Viola until grade 5 and then dropped but still playing. Isn't she uber talented? She also has this uber nice personality and tries her best in everything she does. She said our choir is a very obedient, good and fast learners. She gets along with us just like paper and fire. We totally enjoys practices with her.

~Ok Next, these videos I'm gonna embed in, is from 2 a Capella group. An a Capella group is a group which sings without and accompaniment and they use their voice and togeter sounds like a whole orchestra performing. Although they may be a slight mistake here and there but in an a Capella group, each person is a part and group on their own. Which kinda needs a lot of concentration.
Swingle Singers-Mission Impossible

Swingle Singers--The 1812 Overture

King's Singers:Short People

King's Singers:Barber of Seville Overture

~King's Singers on Newton's Apple: This one is kinda like a lesson =D

~Thinking of changing blogskin =D will do soon. The next time I'm on.

Sole ja. Mata =D

Sch hol here I come

2008-10-23T17:21:00.003+08:00

Konnichiwa minna!!! Ogenki desu ka?

Ne, guess what? It's Yi Hong's birthday!!! Tanjoubi omedetou!!! Haha

Ok things happening...

~I'm currently doing Ms Lim (Choir instructor)'s farewell card. She kinda too busy that she neglected her company for 2 years hence she have no choice but to drop us. The farewell card is kinda like a book. And it's shaped like a ♫-Beamed quaver=1 count =D well we kinda make it as professional as possible and I could say I'm really proud and happy on how it turned out. Love it =D At first I wasn't sure what to do and only had a sorta rough idea of it. we thought to make a card and it sorta evolved to a book as described above. Thanks Yi Hong for working with me and the others for cooperating. It'll never be a success without all of you. Hmm, I'm sounding kinda like Natsuki Takaya-author of fruit basket *grins*

~School closed but we still have CCA and school closing kinda mean that we got our report books haha. Let's see
All these are my overall marks and grade
-English B4 (63) = I can do better de!!! sigh =(
-Chinese B3 (66) = Improved haha =)
-Mathematics B3 (67) = Dropped from CA ah well... Gambatte!!! =#
-Science A1 (82) = Kinda ok, but i think can be better!!! My chem 38/40, bio 35/40, phy 32/40 total 105/120. =D
-Geography A1 (83) = Kinda ok too and can be better. PBL sorta pulled me down =)
-History A1 (80) = OK. Satisfied. Maybe kinda cause I don't like History so a 80 I'm happy XD
-Literature B4 (60) = ok, but i got no talent in that area...=D
-D&T B3 (65) = Surprising. CA kinda help me =D
-Home Econ A1 (76) = Quite ok. Coursework helped a lot thanks Shirmaine =D
-CME A = Nothing much to be said XD
-PE B = Didn't fail =)
-Art B3 = Haha my art sucks to get this grade, XD
Total 642/900 71.3%
Class 9/42, level 38/204 = Argh kinda hoping to get better-20 and above ah well =)
Industry, Leadership, Love, Loyalty, Sincerity all Demonstrates Strongly XD
Overall I'm quite =D as I've improved tremendously in most areas since I picked up violin. Music kinda calms you (PS: I'm less short tempered now) and develop and stimulates your thinking. I LOVE ANIME, MANGA, MUSIC-VIOLIN, CHOIR, SINGING!!!
We can only know our streaming result on 18th November

~Quarrelled with a good friend of mine and no ended up COLD WAR hoho... It's probably the last time we can be in the same class. May call me petty or what but I can't stand people insulting me with untruths (unreliable) and accuse me for things that I done but claimed that I never done and say the F word to me. I mean we're both in a sense wrong but however she accuses me and twist the tale. I'm don't lie and that person suspected that i was lying and in class when that person want to sort things out, her body language is just so... insincere and many more. For goodness sake, and excuse me - if that person is reading - you should know who you are - I'm no an idiot or moron or whatever, but for her information, I can read body language (a bit) and I tend to look things deeper and usually get it right. Be glad I never said your name. I hope you won't be the first person that I REGRET knowing/meting. FYI, I'm pretty nice person when no one comes and disturb me. But if you do, you'll get it back to you TWICE from me -although there are some but negligible exception. You step my leg, you'll get step back twice as hard - only that I'm no longer that selfish. You make me fall, I'll get back up fast (that's one of my ability) and make you fall until you can never pick yourself up. *End of blackness-read fruit basket to understand* PS to the others, sorry for the bitching but I'm generally not that scary when I'm not black-which only appears once in a blue moon. As some people say, I'm pretty naive, innocent, nice, etc but only when I'm un-black =D.

~start of holidays and happily trying to think how to sped my time "wisely". How about an outing with my twin cousin KCM, KCY or an anime marathon or a Music marathon or a mugging session *cough cough* or...

Takara signing off
Mood: Pleasant at end of post - Kioko and carefree = Unloaded here
Wishing everyone a happy today and a better tomorrow. Smile always - Waratte, promise to update soon =D

Happy Birthday!!

2008-09-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

Personally, I wasn't planning on blogging today. But simply can't resist. CAUSE

誕生日おめでとう。

26th September
is my darling dearest twin cousin's birthday!!! They are 14 years!!! Happy Birthday to you, CHUN MEI&YUN!!! Stay happy yah!!!

29th September
is dearest dear GRACE onee-chan birthday.... She's 15!!! HAHA, 1.5 decade =D I'm glad you're me ane =D Be joyful always

30th September
is darling dear CASSANDRA birthday!! Jia you for EOY. 14 years. must always be so lively =D Glad that you're my friend

Haha, this people please look out for notes from me =D

While trying to find picture to put here, I found this

JIA YOU FOR EOY PEOPLE. LET'S DO OUR BEST TOGETHER

Changi Learning Journey

2008-09-23T18:56:00.004+08:00

Gokigenyou minna... Pardon me for my uber late update =D All the best for your examinations. Do your best and never give up =D

Btw, the pictures for my Changi Learning Journey is HERE Click there =D

Meanwhile here are some

CHANGI BEACH

CHANGI MUSEUM

Chapel in museum

PS: Museum can't take pic...

JOHOUR BATTERY

Got more pictures in the link above however too tedious to display all here.... Sorry... =(

Personally, i like the beach a lot.. An got a few "postcard" pictures. Do take a look =)

Well, gomen ne.. I gtg... Cya. Promise to update after EOY sorry.
Updates: Got pretty good results for CT =D & finished grade 2 for violin on 21/9/08 =D

advance Teacher day and hol greeting

2008-08-28T18:10:00.002+08:00

Hi minna!!! LOL Using my bro laptop to blog =D He looked over and smile LOL... Cheng Zhen went home le... But still got "potato" [PS: forgot your nam, so sorry so I se your nic.

And to all teachers HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY... Thanks for teaching us with such patience... without you, we knows where will we be, lost in the system of education =P [PS talking crap] HAve a good break =D

To others, happy hoidays, jy for EYE!!! Last lap le... And for 2-1, let's treasure time together yeah???

To my dear bro, thanks for teaching me theory and or bein my accompanist =D I eally appreciate it =D and remember eat your meals regularly

To my dear cousins, Maybe come over during spt holiday =D

That's all fo now... Continue nxt time =D ja....

Music

2008-08-11T15:43:00.004+08:00

Argh!!!! Never buy dim-sum from my house downstairs... It sucks. The prawn dumpling inside is not cooked... And also, the Japanese toufu don't even taste like 1... If I'm absent tomorrow, it's because of that..... Feel like puking =.= The only thing that's making me better now is MUSIC

MUSIC is an international language... Everyone is able to understand and decipher it... Music connects people together and actually allows strangers to actually become good friends...

I had a few first hand experience in it...

1st: David I don't really know him at first except that he's my friends' friend... He was talking/chatting and seemed to be in good terms with Cassandra and Cheng Zhen. Then, he started talking to me and asked for my number. But he forgot to give me his. So I got from Yong Li. But what really make us from strangers to good friends to sis and bro is our love & passion for music. He plays the piano... XD

2nd Si Ying I don't know her. But by fate, I queued behind her at 199... [Reason: Cause I walked with David to the end of the interchange]. Then I noticed that she was holding some lyrics for a few song, then we started talking and made friends, of course exchange numbers... Then in the bus we sat together and chat... She's also in her school choir, Soprano 1

And because of music, choir and violin, I had a wider range of friends and we are connected by a bond that is strong and hard to break. With Music that is it's support...

Thank you, everyone and fellow music-lover friends. Thanks for being friends and acquaintances. Fate and Music is what drew us near to one another... Thanks soo much

Jia you for common test, and o levels for my bro and his batch-mates. All the best and Good luck. Do your best and never give up

I'll post whenever I can.. PS: youtube has very nice music XD

<3, Adel